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Money the root to all evil.

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Lately I heard the most disturbing stories ever.
Which brings me to the title of my post ; Money the root to all evil.

No seriously, we have became so dependent on money, that most of us are only happy when our pockets are full of it.
We have chose to make something less worthy than love a top priority.
See this is the story I heard.

There was a super rich family.
And there were 3 daughters to the parents.
And I should emphasize that they were really FILTHY rich.
So rich that all 3 daughters had to care about their life so much they ignored their parents.
But so thats when God decided to let something affect them, and so he took away their father.
And their father was the only one who truly loved the mother, that the mum felt even worse after the only last loving person left.
The daughters never had time for their parents as much as they did boyfriends/husbands.
So the mum grew lonelier by day, the dad didn't leave more than 1 year and the mum did a suicidal.
WHY ?

The reason being the daughters were never home to care for her.
And the mum WAS rich, so rich that her money couldnt buy love.
It didnt.
Because even when the dad died, one of the daughters took the father's car without any permission from her mum, and did the husband even care where the car came from?
Or would it even matter what the wife of the late felt?
Nope.

Disgusting.
Disgusting people who would anything for vehicles which does what really?
Move you around town?
Let it be known you have a vehicle to people?
No seriously, how worth it is a vehicle to your morals?

Let me continue, so then when she passed on she hung herself in the middle of the house.
And remembering what Sam told me, its a slow painful death seriously.
Cause you wouldn't die till you break your neck/back.
So when she hung herself in the house is a disturbing image itself.
How about her writing on the mirror, 'Everybody cheated me!', in lipstick sounds like?
Or even how she took our RED sari to lay on the bed.

How disturbed was the mum with the lack of love that pushed her to this?
Money is not everything, and it will not be everything ever.
Even after the dad left, the daughters didnt give atleast a little more attention to the mum.
But if one of them were to atleast spend time with her, or if they were even at home right then the mum might have not done it.
But then again everything's written up there.

Which brings me back to my topic la.
Money.
There's only so much money can do with it.
Right now after their mum doing sucha traumatizing thing I hope they are affected.
I wouldnt sleep if I was any of the daughters.
I can't.
And the mother even wrote a note.
When I heard all these, I was far beyond disturbed.

And thats when my brother and I had a talk about life and death.
And haven I said? I have the best brother in my life.
I do.
If there's someone who educates me and has the worthy of being my Guru, its my brother.
The things he has taught me, values and morals shown is numerous.
And sometimes I wish la I was the bigger sister so I don't get controlled right?But I know I wouldnt be half as good as my brother.
He taught me more than anyone else can.
And someday I would tell my children that there's no one else who can teach me what my brother has.
Cause he's the best. :)

And then I told him, 'I don't want to have alot of money bro, I just want to have happiness.'
And these was his words before.
And he said, 'Exactly, all we need is enough money, but we can never have enough happiness if money becomes the most important thing.'
I want to have happiness.
I want to have happiness.
Just happiness.
And IF I don't have enough notes to look into my wallet, then I'll look at the photos in my wallet.
My brother's face.My bestfriend's face.
They are there, why do I need to be down?

:)))))

I want to have happiness.
And so I wouldn't try so hard living my life in this materialistic world.
I will be myself.
I am not saying I don't want a car know !
Hell I do!
I swear I do, but I won't go to the cheapest meanest way to get the cash to get my car.
There's always a RIGHT TIME, a RIGHT WAY to get all you want.
But if it involves ruining your morals by destroying your Mum and Dad then my car can wait till forever.
And believe it or not, the moment you become a good daughter you automatically become a good person/sister/friend.
So yes, I'll do that.

I want to have happiness.
Just happiness.
And so long there's love, I won't worry.
Cause really how much can a car do ?
But love can do hell lots.

I just want to have happiness.
I want to only be happy by being a successful person.
AND successful in my eyes would mean being a good daughter,I don't want to be the best daughter in the world.
I can't too. But I can be a good daughter.
I will take care of my parents even if they don't need me to.
I will, I will earn enough to send them on trips everywhere around the world cause thats my dad's biggest wish.
And I will live up to their name. I will forever be cultured cause I rather be cultured than be wild and be spoilt.

Often I ask myself, why do I get envious of girls with wonderful night lifes?
Yes its fun.
But!
How long is that fun going to last?!
And how fun is it going to be if I can do everything and anything I want ANYTIME?
Like it becomes a mundane life then.
And I'm not just saying these because I'll never be allowed by my parents to go out anytime.
But because if they allowed me to do so, I wouldnt' be here.
I wouldn't be studying in a poly.
I wouldnt' be pursing my art.
I would probably be one of the lame Indian girl wanna be gangster la!
Seriously.
So I thank God, my mum and dad may come from ICEAGE, hahahaa, but thank God they did, or I can't be who I am today.
See Oswind's like that too? He doesnt see the need of such fun of drinking/clubbing/smoking AND I do think thats its impossible to be like him and he's missing out so much of fun?
But when you sit down and ponder thats when realisation occurs.
How talented is Oswind? No words to describe.

And if money,vehicles are more important than the respect we show to our parents that I hope God shows all those what they deserve.

You know what else I am proud of ?
Till today my family, and I mean my mum's side are all awesome CULTURED people despite their age.
No really, till today, my cousin(brothers) who smokes never do it infront of their parents or even inside their house.
Cause thats respect.
Cause no matter how addicted they are to it, they know right from wrong.
It was a cute incident when my aunty happened to walk upon us and my cousins were having a fag, and so I gave an early call by exclaiming aloud to my aunty.
And I saw my brothers RUN like as if a Tsunami was after them just so my aunt will never see that stick in their palms.
What they don't know won't hurt right?

And then I have my eldest sister who's been married for very long and her father's like the most respected uncle in my family. We all fear him because of the respect people show him.
Till today my uncle doesnt think my sister who's almost 10-12 years older than me, has the need to go to exotic places like BoatQuay.
SO when my sister went for some work related dinner there she had to ACTUALLY explain herself.
Its cute.
And I am not saying my family is controlled so should yours.

But here's the part, my cousins are all well to do!
And we are tight because we all face the same controlling. The guys not much, but even if our parents don't all my brothers view the same picture to our parents.
See they are all control freaks and at the same they are all successful and most importantly they are HAPPY!

So what if we daughters are always going to be controlled in some way
Don't we still feel happy ?
I do.
So long I am with my cousins, my mum doesn't mind.Infact thats one beautiful thing in my family. My mum's side la. I am not close to my dad side.
We all only want one thing, togetherness.
My mum loves it when all the cousins gathers.
I can be out with them till 4 am 5 am, my mum won't mind.
But we avoid telling our mums till how late we were out.
Because, what they don't know don't hurt.They'll nag la no matter what.

See my parents,uncles and aunties have grown to a level where they care too much.
And though there must be limits to everything, they don't, and since they can't control how they feel about issues, we take the tact to not tell them things.

Like how last year I went clubbing with my cousins, do my aunts/uncles or even parents know a shit?
Nope.
But thats respect in my eyes.
A white lie is not a lie entirely right?
I admire every single one of my cousins. They can be old and they all have their fun/wild side, but when it comes to family they do all it takes to satisfy both parties. Ourselves and our parents.
Our parents are old, its hard for them to accept new things.
And clubbing is not a new thing, I know, but their mindset is such, and so if they can't accept it than how hard is it really to just not let them know. Or have a low profile?

There was a day, I decided to test water.
I said to my dad, 'DADDY! COME AH WE GO CLUBBING.' As we were watching some lame club ad on tv.
And his respond was so funny, 'GO LA, COME BACK HOME AND SEE IF DOOR LOCKED A NOT!'
I laughed la.
And he said, 'Don't have all these habits, I don't like it.'
My dad neither smokes nor drinks so tell me again how much more can he accept?
Hahahaha.

But if , just if, I randomly say that to my mum. (About going clubbing.)
OMGGGGGG!!
All her words will come out la!!!
Hahaha.

So I am proud of my roots.
And I don't give a shit to anyone who thinks my life is so screwed.
Cause seriously, its prolly better than yours.
What eventually matters is my thoughts.
My thoughts are everything. (Right Thiniboy,Gaga and Lalang :) ? )

But then life must be fair what.
So my husband shouldn't be that much of a control-freak right?
So ya, he won't.
Hahaha.

So yes, some would probably think how easier is their lives telling their parents the truth?
Truth is, you guys are blessed.
Ya'll prolly have good karma la! Hahaha, that your parents are open to all these.
But in life there's always going to be a balance.
SO yes we can't have the best of both worlds.
But we can choose, we can choose to be happy with it.

Because, all I want is happiness.
And I WILL do all it takes.
And I will work hard enough to have enough to buy a big house only because I can always have my cousins/friends come over and stay.
Because I too love togetherness.
And I will work hard enough and have enough money to give luxury to my parents cause they REALLY deserve it.They deserve it more than me.
And I will do all of these only because money is needed la, but its not bigger than my morals.
And I won't forget who I am essentially.
I will be successful, and that day I will have everything I want, I can go to sleep.
A long sleep. And never come back. :)

Godspeed and my love.