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Sunday, January 09, 2011

The below post would be full of angst, but see, I rarely feel this. If I DO it must be really something.So my readers, ignore it after you read it.

To a wonderful friend of mine. :)
Such amazing friend you were.
For I was truly happy with your comeback.
But now, look, you don't deserve anything to come back.
Like if you would even dare look me in the eye and tell me things I would have respected you as a MAN more than a friend.
But wow, hearing things I had to hear from someone whom I barely know for a year, while you who know me and was CLOSE to me for 8 freaking yearS?
BRAVO LA!

Don't you ever let me hear you say shit, cause I gave you ample chance to come and tell me things.
BEST FRIEND?
LIKE FOR REAL?
Please la, a bestfriend who would let an opposite sex come in between SHOWS alot.
OKAY?
So drop everything, once bitten twice shy right?
Don't ever think I'll respect you one bit.
I will never.
YOU COMPLETELY LOST ME.
You knew how you did the first time and how we both regretted the pause in between.

I don't care who tells me shit know, but the simple FACT THAT YOU OUGHT TO BE BREAKING IT TO ME was whats most important.
But of course, every selfish man has his own story, and so you might have yours too. But shut the fuck up cause I am not giving you a chance to say it. For I waited for what ? 3 weeks? for you two to play behind me and then come up to me and TELL ME I SHOULD CUT PEOPLE AWAY just so you think I WILL REJOICE that you did this behind me, that the person I should have cut away would result in me TAKING IT LIGHTLY?
Fat chance.
Screw you.
And your decision made.

Total failed friend.
Seriously.
I will go on as much as I want in my space, and I hope you actually feel something and call me.
You freaking know how this will jeopardize things between me and the two people involved.
BUT YOU CARED MOST FOR YOURSELF.
You know how tons of people INCLUDING you told me I should care most about myself, because you guys KNOW PERFECTLY I care for everyone more than myself? WELL FROM YOU I LEARN NOW TO CARE ABOUT MYSELF AND ONLY MYSELF.

You know, and IF YOUR GONA SAY THIS WAS UNFORESEEN, then please, before I show YOU the finger, you better take it back.
UNFORESEEN - totally la.
Thats why when I first knew you even made a casual move, I said look, step back cause you know what the reaction would be if the party involved gets to hear about it. REMEMBER?
You who stopped talking to a girl previously because she had a link to him didnt STOP you again?
Cause love happens la.
Cause love is blind, but I didnt know its closes your eyes on friendship also la.
Not bad not bad.
You two made such selfish moves la, but the manipulation in your wait?
Was even more selfish.

Seriously, I am so effing pissed right now that if you appear in front of me, I'd actually scream my head of at you.
Like when you went into camp you began your game, after knowing I know also you wanna play means, this one not maturity all know, this one bullshit.

The guts you have in other issues all something to be praised about la uh.
But when its comes to solid friendship ah, you suck.
Really, don' ever think this will subside la, the least you could have effing done was call me la.
Value my friendship alot?
BE SUPPORTIVE?
Dont wanna waste any more years apart?
Ey, please la, seriously ah, think before you talk.
Okay, keep this crap to yourself.
For if I see you, I'm giving you the nastiest look coming close to spit being drawn.

You will play your game and I have to bear it upon myself and ontop of that support you?
Please, I know you better than anyone.
And knowing you....... means.....alot.....you know....I know...

A guy who can do this to a BESTfriend...can do this to anyone else.

You wanted me to cut people out, cause those people didnt prove their worth, and how did your prove yours? Thank god I didn't cause he was there each time in my life.
At my highest and lowest and messiest.
AND HE WOULD NEVER DO THIS AT THE BACK OF ME.

Well done la.
Such act given for the past 3 weeks.
How did you manage it la? Wow.

WRONG IS WRONG.
Getting people to support you in something wrong will NEVER make it RIGHT.

Karma is bitch, mine hit me.
And yours will.
This is it.

GOODBYE!