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My Stay home Saturday =.=

Saturday, April 23, 2011

I can't believe my weekend just went off like that.
And all I did was stay home.
Like Friday was a stay home public holiday with the cousins, my awesome possom Seanpaul cousin stricftly ordered us to be home. :(

SO yes, but it was fun, we went Jurong point in the evening and did a bit of shopping.
My handsome brother bought me a top!
Thanks bro!! :)

And after that headed home, chilled a bit and eventually found myself so sian, all I wanted to do was sleep.
Woke up as early as 7 ish this morning as I was gona go temple, and Jurong to Sembawang is indeed a long way.
Reached temple at like 10 and saw the same old familiar faces.
Speaking of whom , Lakesh, is one amazing guy I've known after Lily.
I really appreciate the fact I know these guys despite the way of how I even know them.
Lets not go there.
But then again, let me just go there for a while.
I'm so pissed mad at you.
And I asked myself why did I even think you could be in my future?
What did you show me that I even considered?
Seriously, if I was to let the whole world know about your shit, like how you think I don't know you are, I am sure you would have to hide.
But then again, that's what sets us apart. I wouldnt.
You don't just say you love someone and because you can't have them you make sure everyone around you can't too.
But if thats what you want, then so be it. It will be given.
Since when have I ever denied you of anything within my capabilities.

But hear this once and for the last time : I AM NEVER COMING BACK!
I promise you.

And on a lighter note I decided to come up with of how I wish my boyfriend would or should be?
Lol.
But see its all my imagination, it may sound illogical,stupid, impossible, but HELLO I said its my wish! Hahaha.

First and foremost, I hope and pray and wish that my future BF knows where I'm truly coming from.
Like my family background, the way I was brought up, ruled over, controlled and everything.
And honestly takes the tact to respect my up bringing and me.
He doesn't need to be so good : and good here doesnt mean telling me 'I don't drink,smoke,have tatoos and only pray', but eventually you do all that oppositely?
But I want someone who's balanced.
Knows his work, and knows his game.

Like someone who wouldnt put leisure infront of work too often?
Someone who doesnt get drunk every damn day and ends up missing work?
Someone who doesnt smoke too much and gets his internal organs destroyed.
Someone who loves himself and eventually someone who respects his material body and not intoxicate it much?
Like it comes to the point he should maybe share my view : All that's good or bad should be done in moderation.

And neither do I want someone who DOESNT drink at all but smokes enough to kill him.
Or someone who DOESN'T at all smokes but drinks enough to be the only customer required at a bar.
I don't need extremes, I don't.
I want someone who balance it all up and still remain fun!?

But coming back, he should really bear in my mind of my family, and our culture and not for a second let my BROTHERS topmost, parents and my cousins even doubt him of his responsibility.
Like say, he shouldn't be well known for being a drunk so much so my brothers give me the red signal?
Or even be so famous among girls for the wrong reasons and give my sisters a room to watch out for me?
He shouldnt be anything like that?
And he should know how my cousins are more than cousins and too dear to me that HE should blend in perfectly with them?
Like I would hope he would initiate meet-ups with my brothers and hang out with them.
Or even with my other cousins and we would all hang out together?
Seriously, he must be well liked by my family.

And then comes to the friends part.
He should of course know of my girlfriends and guys and you know be able to click with them all the time?
Cause the similarities between my friends and I are we 're friendly?So from them it shouldnt' be an issue.
But then I hope then even after he enters my life I don't have to change the way I am to them in anyways, which I did previously?

He too should not for a second change the way he is towards his friends upon being my boyfriend?
And I will be more than understanding should he have bestfriends of the opposite sex.
I've been that friend to many of my guy friends I should know how I wouldnt want to lose a friend because he's attached?

See I wanna know him for a few good years and with each year I hope we both make positive changes to each other and be happy and so happy that we really are contented?

I wanna be able to hang out with him at a bar should he watch soccer with his guys as I love watching soccer?
And should I want to go home midway, he just needs to ensure that I get home safely, and he doesnt need to leave with me?
And moreover, should I bring him to my home as my boyfriend I hope he ensures,assures my DAD to take good care of me. For my DAD means a whole deal to me and vice-versa.
Like he should know how to carry himself and know my dad would be judging him and he should not give any reasons for my dad to even have second thoughts?
Of course I want to be able to share with my dad about him freely?

Like he should know my dad doesnt drink nor smoke so atleast with the saying : 'What you don't know don't hurt', he should maintain that image to my parents.
And I would also hope he never lost his roots, and should he be someone who prays I would be delighted?And not just CLAIM that he prays so much he thinks he's god and all that rubbish la =.=
And of course, for him to be musically inclined or even being a music lover would be the cherry on my cake.

And something really important for me, I really hope you would be able to carry an intellectual conversation with me?
Like I'm done with typical Tamil language thrown at my face and all that drama?
I need a guy who knows how to have a smart convo with me, to be able to discuss about Singapore's issues, to discuss about any current issues or anything under the sun.
But in English, like a respected man who loves his Tamil as much as his English but knows how to talk and when to talk what?
I need that.
Call me a discriminative woman, but I know what I want.
And this is what I want : A balance. Like Yin and Yan.
Opposites attract but they need to balance each other.

And alsooooo...he needs to be educated, having good prospects that I need not worry about should he even want to job-hop.
Be earning enough to keep us happy.
And most importantly someone who knows the importance of savings?!
And for him to have a savings from a decade ago would be a bonus for me only because it helps me be assured of his mentality and his responsibility.
Like really really, all these are crucial and so I would consider all that?

And coming back to the religious side , I would not stand him getting drunk on special days like Thaipusam/Panguni and getting involved in it whilst being drunk?
Like hello?Screw it, I would probably not even want to know someone who does all that.
Like I said, to know what to do when is important for me.
And should he be a participant in these big events I would most definitely be happy for him and pray along for all his prayers to be answered.
See the reason being, my brothers are all like that?
They maybe simply guys who work,club have a gf/wife but when it comes down to God and them they don't fail on it? They don't get DRUNK on these days and be annoying to the people around by dancing/singing drunk?
So I hope that guy would really get to know and realise about my family enough?

And can he also please have a car/car license?I'm done with guys hoping I wouldnt get a car till they get their license and their fucked immaturity.
But it would be ohsocool for him to have a car only because I'm done with a routine life with public transport and would want to be pampered just a little?
And of course I would call on days where I would want to travel in public transport with him only because we shouldnt get too antisocial(if its the right word) and comforted with the luxury of a car?
And strictly no driving, should he want to get drunk outside with his guys . :)
And once in a while to freak out is totally understandable, but say every weekend - NO?
LIKE A BIG FAT NOOOOO!
:)

And and and, did I also mention that, he should trust me and I would trust him with time of getting to know each other and we should try our level best not to disappoint each other when its trust issue?
Yep.

And coming back to my weak point : Singing.
By God's grace should he be able to sing , I WOULD BE OMGOMGOMG EXCITED and be his biggest FAN.
And he can call me anytime of the day to randomly sing a song and that itself would be a surprise.

I want a guy who knows how to plan days/evenings or surprises?
Like a guy who knows how to treat his lady well?
Someone who observes you and like hear you out carefully about places you mention and when weekends comes he calls you and says, 'Okay we're going out tomorrow, pick you up at 7' , and drives down to the place she mentioned days back?
Like omg,how effing sweet would that be?

And despite being a bf, he knows how to have little games with you?
That are harmless but eventually the aim of the game is to basically make you miss him a little more each day?

Ah that said, I need to close my eyes and head to bed thinking of him!
Lol, will continue this tomorrow!
As abrupt as this may be, I love you people! :)

And and and, I'm missing you.