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Thursday, October 29, 2009

A BREATHER IS WHAT I NEED. I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE.

TOO MANY THOUGHTS ....TOO MANY EMOTIONS.

MANY MORE QUESTIONS.

The problem is not that I get myself too close/involved with my loved ones, but the fact that I am close and there's only so much I can do.

SO GOD, answer my questions.
What can I do?
What will happen now?
Is it the end or .....

There's only so much one can take.
So show me, show me that you know what you're doing.

FEELING DAMN DISTURBED I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE.
:(

RIP

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

As much as we all hate the part, to part, we all go through it.
And sometimes its just too much it overwhelms you.
My bestfriend's dad passed away.
And sometimes, I wonder why do things like these happen to sucha nice guy?
He's an awesome person he is.
And the fact that dear mum of just passed on 2 years ago, it cuts like crazy to think how he's gona deal with life now.

With a younger sister barely 16 and an elder sis who's living/studying abroad the numerous thoughts that was passing through his mind since scares me.
But he smiles,jokes and even laughs and it calms me down, but I know that after the smile dies down the problem runs in.

Then is when I realise, his assets are his friends.
All his friends who are there for him, are there for him as much as his relatives or actually even more.
Like how everyone who has Sam is somehow gifted.
Cause regardless of where she is she'll help, she'll do however much she can.
And so, her mum who's a lawyer will be helping him with however ways she can.
And I feel so warm knowing there are real genuine nice people around.

My mum is more than willing to cook for Oswind,his sisters and his other relatives when he needs my mum to.
Even Vik's mum is doing that tonight.
I feel glad.
But I still have got this naggy feeling in me.
I really don't know how to put it down in words.
But the Uncle's face is still fresh in my head.
With his eyes open. :(
I just know I'll feel much better after Oswind settles all his current pressing issues.
But one by one boy, you'll do it. We are all here with you.

I've always wanted to know his sister, and its through this incident I'm getting to know the younger one.
And she's sucha nice girl I totally adore her.
And besides that, I realised how much Oswind friends are willing to do for him.
From Chandra !! To Mash!! To Ramp!
Awesome people, too awesome friends.

My eldest sis and I were discussing about how everything is being orchestrated for us by the one above, and at the same time, he should know there's so much he can test and take from one.
So show me will you?
That this boy and his sisters will have a bright ease life.

As I've mentioned before, Oswind's asset are his friends.
I really mean that.
And I realise how much some people will go through to be there for Oswind.
Like Sam who'll do all it takes even if she's in another country.
Like how Tnesh will do all he can to get a Gate pass to attend the Funeral.
Like how Viknesh will also do the same.
And these people are eventually the friends you need.
Cause some won't even try.

And I was this close to meeting the dad, because he wanted a friend of Oswind who knew how to blog. :(

I'm done.

Om Nama Shivaya.
Rest in peace Uncle.
Bless Oswind and his Sisters Shiva.
I know you will.

random wednesday evening

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Its been ages, and it will be ages till I blog again.
Lol, but Deepavali's coming and I'm not excited.
Or maybe I am just for Sunday.
Going out with the dance Lovies to Aichu's place for lunch and then the usual cousins gathering at Grandma's.

I think there's alot going on.
And I've so little to say already.
I'm embracing the moments as they come.
Cupids have been my happy pills outside school, while my FYP loves continue being my happy pills in school! :)

Pavitra's surprise was a small one, but I am glad she loves it.
We got her the best cake, meaning Coco Exotic from Four Leaves and an awesome pretty bag/clutch from Charles and Keith its awesome!

I was thinking about how I would be interested in a guy and what I really would expect from him.
And how amazing it would be if I can even find sucha person here.
Which means never?!
So here's my hopes atleast ; That he :

Has to be able to sing.
Has to be God Loving.
Is loving.
Is understanding.
Plays soccer!
Respectful.

Almost impossible to find laaa.
But then again thats why its always, 'Almost Perfect'.
So I'm gona remain a nun for the rest of my life. :P
Or maybe not.

And and and, on a random note, I think I'm blessed.
Or just lucky! :)
I get songs every night and they are not devotional ones la.

Today I had the best time with the last person thought. (KK DONT ANGRY!)
*Does no need hand gestures*
SINDHU MOLE.
Hahahah.
I just laughed too much, till I had chest pain, stitches and what not. Lol.
And RUBY RED'S THE IN THING, MANY THANKS TO YOU LOVE! -.- 1000 TIMES.
Sunday plan better go as planned? Or then again, if it doesnt, Plan B will always happen k?
Don't worry!

MY SOULMATE has been so busy la. But she'll claim otherwise in my tag-board for sure!
Haha. I think I'm so blessed with the best family, best sisters, brothers, bestfriends and ... everything else.
It has to be so. Lol.

I'm missing my bombie alot.
And Sammy Kutty.
I hope ya'll are good.
Loves.

Godspeed and my love.