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Sunday, May 31, 2009

And so, I don't have the biggest eyes, sharpest nose, and fullest lips, but I have the bestest family and friends. Read on. Its going to be a looooong one.

I reach this stage where I start making decisions.
And clear bold ones.
As for now,I would only say I am more than satisfied with everyone around me.
I am so thankful for every single one around me that I feel dumb I had to miss certain people.

As I once said, keep the people you had in your past in your heart where it requires no revision but just permanence.
To the friends I had in my past, especially one, thank you thank you for all that you have done.
But today I reached the thought that, hell you don't deserve me.
You don't deserve the best.
And one day when it dawns on you, its gona hurt you. Not the way it hurt me, but something even worse.

You taught me one thing, you taught me to stand on my own feet.
I was handicapped while you were always there on my side .
I was la. Totally.
With the thought that you're always gona be next to me, I barely had to feel alone.
But it taught me well.
It taught me so well to learn how to be independent.
It taught me to control over thoughts and emotions.
I knew how to start keeping things to myself, just so I don't end up making everything an issue.

I wouldnt hate you.
I wouldnt dislike you.
At the same time I wouldnt have the same thoughts I once did.
Cause you jeopardized it.
But thank you for that, I've came way far.

Look at me now!
I am finishing up a Diploma. I am finally going to be a graduate.
I am pursuing my passion with the fire growing stronger every day.
I am looking forward to the day I can start paying for my parents and giving them the best life.
I am learning so much about the friends around me and the people around me.
I've gotten closer to people and am feeling so loved. (Cupids!)
I finally realise I am achieving things slowly.
As much as I went through shit initially, things are getting better, and the thing about me is , I'll keep going la.
Bring on the toughest storm and I'll fight.
I will.
So what happened when things went awry between us?
Your still the topic when I met up with the friends. Not in a negative way.
But all the funny shit you do.
The fact is no one will ever understand me the way you do, maybe bombie,soulmate and bio teacher.
But like you have this step above in my heart, when you know me best.
All you need to do is give me the eye contact and we totally read each other instantly.
All I need to do is be down for a few minutes and you'll know immediately whats wrong with me.
So in that way I may be at loss, but in all other ways you've lost me too.
But!!!
I was happy it happened sooner than later.
I have decided, whoever's around me at this moment of life are the people I would bring to the grave or atleast as long as there's forever.

I am thankful for the family I am in.
As much as they can be sucha pain in the neck, I am who I am thanks to their upbringing.
And though sometimes I really wish my brother would give me more freedom, I think when the time comes I'll get it instead of pushing my luck.
I feel achieved.
I will keep going after my Diploma, not pausing for a moment.
I will keep going in my dance too.
I will keep going.

But that night when you asked if I was confused?
I realised, wow, look at the sarcasm level in one. Go ahead la, do your thing.
I can use so many things against you and counter but whats the use ah?
I mean theres so much more meaning to me and how much I regarded you as.
And thanks for the concern of my friends, they are all great. I hope your fake friends are too.
There I said it!

End of topic hence, I wouldnt be addressing you or so further.

Now to someone else , sometimes I wonder why you keep away from most of us?
I thought it was just you or maybe you didnt really like hanging out with us alot.
But then I realised that it was sucha healthy thing to do.
There's limit to everything and through your actions you taught me.
Remember how your nick was, 'The best things come when you least expect it.'
You made sense there too.
And right now I want to tell you something from the bottom of my heart, I liked the way you handled your life.
Although I am always asking you if you have a girlfriend or not I know that you would tell me nevertheless if you ever do.
I am so so happy that your doing so well academically and now what, entering the Police?
You amaze me la, totally.
You are one person whom I think will go far in life because of the way you prioritise your life.
Your funny la, and you will tell me how this funny thing was with you since birth.
And as much as we totally support different soccer teams you always always make me smile la.
Incase I havent said this to you boy, you're special to me. :)
Like how the other day at the dam, you'll put your head together with mine and discuss how we gona go about freaking out on my birthday. You were so genuine right then I felt so happy.
I really did.And honestly, whatever fast you did for Mr.Sats and all the prayers has definitely helped you in where you are today! Always be grateful, start going temple regularly OKAY?
Don't give lame excuses.
:) ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR REAPPEAL!

And then comes you you you!
What do I say? :)You’ve been such joy in my life since I’ve known you. I never thought I would leave poly without making a bestfriend but I did.You always brighten up my days with your shit faces and and your sleepy attitudes. We can always talk about anything under the sun and laugh about shit.

You are always willing to share with me your stories that sometimes humour me as well as shock me.But thank you, thank you for believing me. Thank you for trusting me. It must be tough to just pour everything into someone you knew not long ago. I love you for who you are and you know what I would love more in you yes? Courage! Lol, not as if I am some lion la, but atleast I am braver!
Besides all that, we’ve had some many happy moments together I am thankful for you.

Your prayers that always comes true, I wouldn’t forget all the times, I called you be like ‘OMG CAN YOU PRAY THAT TODAY MY COUSINS ALL GO CLUBBING SO I CAN GO TOO’,hahaha.They came true, they always did. And prayers you made on your initiative were the nicest things ever.

“I pray to God to give him strength to pull thru this and make him a better person’’, and maybe * won’t know you did, but I know and the one above knows.
“My sweetest memory : Our meeting!
My biggest sadness : The distance!
My biggest hope : To c you soon!
My strongest prayer : Our friendship lasts forever …”

You always tell me that those who aren’t with me are facing a loss and you would say all kinds of nice things. And I don’t really care if you meant them, but the fact that you are there for me every single time proves enough love.You would talk to your mum,grandma,aunty about me and I feel loved whenever you do that. You know how to show your love and that makes you who you are.
We’ve spent time knowing each other well, and we’ll continue to.

You've been in situations I can never imagine myself in, situations I wouldn’t hope on anyone. You’ve came a long way, you have. If a girl can grow with the amount of morals you have without enough love and care and guidance, then I think the one above knows what he’s doing and you have a great life ahead. Go to the Uni you want, and achieve all you want, and one day, as we visualize, me you,your boyfriend and * altogether spending time outside.

IT WILL HAPPEN.
You will remain as the pretty Indian girl I’ve know who has been brought up in a manner that is not supposed to make you a better person,but you came through it all.
I LOVE YOU !

And now to you, my lil one! My ladies man!!!! Hahaha, you’ve been nothing but laughs in my life.I never quite imagined myself speaking my guts out to a younger one la. But you made me.We have the same frequency on many subjects, and truth be told, you’re one of the mature ones I’ve came across. I know you best for your heart. I know how nice of a person you are and your company is something I would never trade anything for.

You understand people well, and if there’s one thing about you, you’ll do anything and everything within your capacity to help even if it means breaking your own parent’s trust. And seriously, I don’t know why I laugh at you for every slightest thing that you say or do, but you’re one charming person I’ve met . I would never forget how I would ask you how is your girlfriend and you would respond with a ‘fines’ instead of ‘fine’ indicating you have more than one. Hahahaha.

And you’re so so funny that its impossible to not laugh while you fool around.As much as it results me being chided by your mum, its worth it. I swear it is. And I always wished I had a younger brother, and you fulfilled that spot la. I thank you from my bottom of my heart for that leh!! If your sister ever disowns you please feel free to come here. I would love to have you around.
I think whoever has you as their bestfriend is one lucky person. So our L* very lucky uh? Hahaha.

I also want to thank you for all the help you have offered. Thank you thank you. :)

Next one would be you. I have known you since a young age. Although we were under the same Guru we were in different classes and only had the chance to know you better recently.
I always looked up to you in class as you had such flawless movements while you dance, it was beautiful to watch you. And I CAN safely say you’re one dancer who never showed any arrogance in class.
You remained how you have always been, which is something not many can manage.

A child prodigy,that’s for sure.

As much we had one common thing between us, getting to know you was nice. I remember the surprise party we threw you, and the look you had on your face.Classic, till * almost peed in her pants. I truly wanted you to have a blast last birthday, cause you had to. I know you’ll always miss your dad and nothing I say can be a consolation,but your dad made us all feel awed. As he made his way down for each one of your performance to record it and to make you improve in your dance, you indirectly spurred me on.

And so, on your birthday, you deserved a blast. As he watches you grow, I am sure he’ll never stop guiding you.
And as for us, I don’t know. I’ve tried many times getting you to open up, only to have you keep everything inside and that doesn’t work with me, or us for that matter. And then it makes me wonder if I am even a friend to you when you don’t tell me your feelings.

Truth is, if I care I’ll always be caring. And maybe when you didn’t open up, I thought that we can’t progress. Cause that’s not how friends work. But, I am sure I never allowed that to stop me from being there for you. I hope I did help you whenever you needed to hear my opinions/views. You have a lot to learn as you grow, and your teenage years are just here, so live the fullest in these years. I talking as if I damn old uh, but seriously, your age periods are the best periods to just have fun and freak out.

There’s a reason why you’re talented. There’s a reason why your brothers are so smart. There’s a reason for the over-whelming support your mum gives when it comes to your dance and everything else. Don’t let whoever get to you, I remember the day we were in *’s house and you lost it. The tears meant something. They mean your love. And so don’t stop loving your life. You have a beautiful one. And you’ll always be the closest dance mate to me and * too. Maybe, just maybe one day you’ll realise..loves

Moving on to you …
What do I have to say?Its a pity I got to know you as a friend of some irritating people!!! Hahahah.But when I finally broke the wall between us it was a breakthrough for me.I had a new friend in my life. A good one too. We weren’t close till * brought us closer. And watching Galaticos match with you and * always made it more fun.
We could talk about anything and we would always be laughing.
When we meet after a long time, the immediate thing we do is update.
I like how that works with us, I didn’t have to feel far away from you. Even we don’t text and call each other regularly, whenever we do, we make the best outta it.
And when I had a sad story to share, you would text me and tell me not to worry. It means a lot to know, I remain in your mind even after we have met.

Ogay partner, you have been sucha nice friend and I truly love you leh! I love your nose the best. Hahaha. I am glad you have met your love who takes good care of you. I still remember how he wanted me there for your surprise party! A gem made for another. I have this feeling we’ll be seeing more of each other once I start my career, the same place you’ll be heading to! Hahaha, you be successful bro! And if ever, a listening pair of ears, a shoulder to lean on is ever needed I am sure you know you can come to me.

For the spongebob towel presented to me, thank you bro! I absolutely love it la.
For the sheesha blast we’ve had thank you.
For the subway times. And for everything else, you’re a friend I would keep .

And now to you, you've been in my life since childhood, and I can safely say we started becoming close since the age of 14?
You were there for all the small problems I faced in secondary school.
Like since the times I had problems with N, you would call him to ask him why.And right then I knew, if there’s one person who’ll stand up for me, its you. Its you friend, its just you.You never failed to make me feel family.

I totally adore your family. Especially the lil bro. I swear I wish I had him as my brother, but what difference does it make right? He’s still my bro!
Well friend,there are some things I wish I could tell you.But let me start off with how much I appreciate you. There are so many times you called me up just because you want me there with you whenever there’s a show, or national day parade you would just give the first or any available tix to me.And you made me always come, and most of the times I came was because I wanted to spend time with you, because we have so much fun together friend.

You were like my strength, always there to push me when I fall.Yes, you don’t pull me up, but you simply push me into the right direction.And that I don’t get from a lot of people.Over the years, I realised that though we won’t be contacting each other daily, there’s one thing we won’t fail to do.

One big thing, and that would the birthday call when the clock strikes 12.And what follows after that? Our gifts! We never stop this tradition since eh? I love you friend a lot.You’ve been such a moral support to me. When I can’t go out anyway, all I need to say is, ‘Ma, I going out with *’, and that’s my passport to outings.
In many ways you been a friend,a good friend, a close friend, a bestfriend and a sister.And good God,am I thankful!

And one day friend, I hope, I really do, that we both will go to the temple and pray together, cause we both genuinely want to. We’ll stand infront of Shiva and I’ll thank him for making us unite in a place I would love to.

You are sucha sweetheart and I can’t just thank you enough.We’ll keep counting the years.You know friend, the day you said that your dream would be to do your dance graduation with me was the day I knew that you put me up there so high.I always had a little voice in my heart, not mind, telling myself that if ever I do it with you I’ll be way beyond ecstatic! I will,but my mind tells otherwise.I know I can live with the fact my bestest girlfriend said this to me and I will live with it. Cause its enough friend, more than enough.

“Friend they fail to realise what an amazing friend you are.they wont realise it till they lose one day.but,anyone can walk out of your life friend,but I will still be standing right beside you till the very end.love you fren.
“Till death do us apart fren! Thnks for always being thr for me. If thrs 1 who genuinely cares, that’s you.’’ – How am I to show you how appreciative of you? I am. And friend, we’ll keep going, till we get our beach houses next to each other in Australia k?

I really would love that. And I really love you more than you know. And maybe God thought that you would do better as a friend than a sister, how I wish he felt otherwise. :)

Okay next one!! Hahaha.
Hahhaahaha, when I even want to say something about you, I smile cause your sucha happy person, such happiness you radiate from your words/actions to us.You are one talented person, you are.
I remember how I got to know you!! From watching you amaze all my secondary school mates including myself by your soccer skills. And when I decided to drop a msg in Friendster , I didn’t know then, that my bestfriend was in the making.

The talk we had the first time on the line started at 10 pm till 5 am!! Who else but us have sucha start ? Haha. Not forgetting we were all going to see you just a few hours later. You blew us all away, a person so skilled and talented had sucha humble personality and a funny one too.
Those times are treasured la, cause then was when you were NICE TO ME!! Hahaha, now I don’t even have respect from you. -.-
Those bowling days with all ChristChurch and one and only Northlander with us was weirdly funny la! And maybe I’m not in contact with them, but I remember the times you would constantly say, ‘I’m still here for you’, speaking of that, its been long since you said that uh loser!! Waliao.
MEAN ASS!

But seriously, you are sucha nice person, and if there’s someone who is loved by everyone its YOU!
And as much as it sucks to have you be down, it sucks even more for me. When I see you down, it hurts, I swear it does cause you try to keep everything to yourself esp if its home issues and you wouldn’t realise that your face shows that you’re troubled. Even Navin my cousin realises la.

You’ve been sucha best friend to me and I must recall on the times you were very nice to me.
The evening where I was heading home after playing risk in school, and I was going to take the bus home when you suggested to another one to take the bus along with me and then finally persuaded me to go all the way to Yishun just for dinner, and buying me dinner even when I didn’t want to.You did that out of the love you have for me!

So thank you,and as if the night couldn’t get better, you would tell your friends that you would send me back home by accompanying me home,and when I was adamant that I could go back on my own, you just hailed for a cab and made me take it and even give me the money to pay for it. There’s so much a friend can do, and sometimes I feel so happy you exceed it. And I don’t need you to care as much as you can for me anymore, cause these incidents are more than enough.
And maybe you would never really regard me as your bestfriend, but I do. Hell I DO.

And you know what I hear from most, ‘Don’t lose * ever Shahl.’ I wouldn’t want to.
So tell me how happy I felt that evening we were all in Long John and your friend’s sister popped in only to have you introduce saying, ‘She’s my bestfriend’ ,pointing and you would act as if you never said that afterwhich. Hahahaa. I can live with that.
You are one person who’s so responsible, that you make me feel useless la.

A 20 year old who manages his passion for sports, time for friends and expenses for his family is one RESPONSIBLE adult. And its cute know, that you would iron your lil sister’s uniform daily only because she always had someone doing it for her. You’re an awesome son,father,brother(can improve a bit la ) and obviously a friend and as a person you are just wonderful.

And maybe I’ve deleted the one and only sms you said I love you too Shahl* ***** I wanna tell you that I really love you a lot, and I must be really gifted to have you around.
You continue being how you and you’ll reach heights, but don’t forget me once you attain all the popularity k, already now Singapore’s …..Player. Hahaha. You make me proud. You do.
Thank you for making efforts to be close to my bro/mother and my cousin. My cousin definitely sees you as his role model.
One day, I hope you would get together with the girl of your choice and be truly satisfied as you deserve to. You will.
“Tell me why you must blog about me like that?TELL ME now now now!’’ - RIGHT? Haha.

To you.
Your naturally the most forgiving person I’ve had the chance to have in my life.I respect you so much and sometimes you give me the drive to excel in life. You motivate me.You do.You achieve all your dreams and spur me to do the same.I know that if I ever feel low or down, I can always come to you and you’ll be there to listen to every complaint. I am so thankful bro, I am. :)

I still remember how I got to know you, it was funny how we both we supporting different teams and we still became friends. I knew about your singing talent and I was awed by it.You are talented.
So much of talents waiting to burst out of you.
You are mature and I know that very well.I love your documents the most, in the letters are your true feelings and emotions, and I always feel I learn something new after reading what you have to say. Its true, I do bro. And I know that you will always have my back.

The nicest thing you ever offered to me was to ask me to come over and stay with you a couple of days only because I was being retarded and didn’t want to stay home. I realised then,how awesome of a friend you are and how thankful I am. I am. And I know I screwed it up twice,but thank you for the benefit of the doubt,we’ve have grown. I have, and I’ll always be indebted. No one else would simply forgive like how you did, and that twice too.

You never stopped caring even if people close their doors on you and maybe that’s not the smartest thing to do but it’s the wisest in my eyes. Someday, just someday the one who closed their doors on you will be knocking on it wishing you could share your thoughts and that’s what is happening now isn’t it? With you know who.
Remember when you got concerned over * and wrote him an email hoping he would take it seriously and really do some damage control , I felt so touched that you took the time and effort.
Truth is I know you and * may not be that close but still you never allowed that to come in between. You genuinely cared for him and maybe he won’t realise till later but someday when he does he should be so thankful for having you in his life once. Many don’t know the worth and once they do it better be on time. I realised already. :)

You amaze me with your confidence, you never cry it out atleast in open. Relax ah, I know your bedroom is THE place! Lol, but seriously, you are one confident person who knows and is aware of herself most of the time.You know why most of the times? Cause you go weak when you see bald men! Hahahaha, and that moment you will be like ‘OMG’ .

And when I see you achieve all that you want, I truly feel happy for you and as much as its gona suck with you elsewhere I am sure we’ll pull through won’t we? I always saw you as a person who knew right from wrong very well. And when I feel that no one else would understand how I felt I knew who to go to.
Thanks for everything . I am sorry for all the hurt man. I love you.

Lets to proceed to the next one uh?
A wonderful heart.I will always remember the 2 main words to describe you, courage and love. As much as your temper is the suckiest thing about you, you have a nice heart. You always make me laugh, as much as anger me. And I can’t stay angry forever can I? SO eventually I return to make our friendship only stronger.And I think, I have said this, but million thanks for all the support I had from you. You were willing to do things I never expect from anyone else. Knowingly or unknowingly you were protective over me and I saw that many times in you and I felt cherished. I knew you wouldn’t let harm come my way and you would fight whoever/whatever for me. I know , I know. :(

People love you because you always make them happy. You know how to laugh at the funny things that is happening around you, and what you don’t know is when you laugh at it, the person involved likes it that you’re giving them the attention and automatically they get drawn to you. You are a fun person to be with, a retarded one infact and the laughs and smiles you result in is us countless.
You always used to make sure you call me daily, without fail, to update me on the smallest things and to ask me what has been happening on my side, and even if there’s nothing to talk about, eventually we’ll have something. Most of the times funny conversations, sometimes serious.

You know * told me, ‘He actually calls you everyday without fail just to talk know! Just to talk.’And I was touched yes, but sometimes…. I expect a lot you think? I don’t I don’t.( I just need you to know where to place me and not disappoint me. )
You amaze me with that, the gift you’ve got to make people happy.Its a gift and your blessed with that.You know what else is amazing about you? You never fail to want to be there for your loved ones. Be it your family/friends. And the thing about you is, you may appear hard and have a hot head, but the things you engage yourself with are something special. Culinary and poems.

Your strength is, you won’t show your innermost feelings to people until you reach your breaking point which can also be a weakness but you know what you want at the end of the day. And thats what matters right? When you really want something you’ll go all out for that. That is the responsibility in you, so don’t doubt yourself, you know where you want to go eventually. You can be very systematic when you want to complete something and use this for every other situation and see yourself soar HIGH. Cause sometimes I wish I had that too.

I always told you, you are one genuine person I’ve known. I really thought so. And as much as you would put friends always first sometimes you cared more for them than for yourself. Which isn’t the best thing to do and someday you would know that. Sometimes I wonder why are you a different person in words and in action. And they say action speaks louder than words don’t they?
So often I see you talking and talking and getting diverted and distracted midway and you forgot where you left at. You simply start over ,talking, and your actions never working simultaneously.

You love to defy whats infront of you and work it right as much as its not right.Thats a good way to tackle life most of the times. And besides that, everything else you’ve done for me is appreciated. So so appreciated my brother knows all that you’ve done.
And a known fact is we’ve fought many times.And sometimes its really sad that we have to go through all that but after every problem we had, I only wish for one thing,t o understand each other better and to be tighter than ever.
“my mother scolded me for fighting with u and she dun even noe wad happen
she scolded me first
tts how impt u r to me.” –Am I?

Do you know everytime you say, I love you Shahl, I keep that sms in my phone? Only cause, I hardly see the soft side to you unless in words. SO thank you for that.

Remember the phone call we had not long ago? Where you talked about how you would want my birthday to go this year? I was so touched. Like I was like so taken aback that you even had the intentions to make my day. Really am thankful. That’s enough for me this birthday.That thought alone. And the question asked in your car. “You’re God’s bestest gift.”

And then comes the question, are you sure you were a bestfriend to me? All the things done, I question myself where did I go wrong?
And someday I hope you learn your priorities in your life. Maybe I wont be there climbing every other mountain with you, its better this way uh?But I promised that I will watch you succeed.The letter I hope, is there where I left.Thank you and I love you. Its hard to walk away when I am always going to be caring and wondering about you, but I hope you understand that you showed me that I am not needed. You did. Those piercing eyes I shan’t replace. And maybe your dad didn’t get to know that you were a GEM, but now he does. You are special.YOU ARE.Maybe my words don’t matter or they are pointless but still…..a masterpiece remains as one…

And to my friend since I’ve known forever.
I am glad. Just glad we’re still together as the best of friends ever. I will never be able to forget the days in Primary 1 and 2 where we would hold hands and guide our class. And how we became prefects together. We ruled the class we did. And I still remember what you were good at, drawing!!And look at you now, doing something you’re good at. Its sad that we had to split, but maybe if you didn’t we weren’t be close right now?Everything is supposed to happen for a reason yes? But really, you gave me confidence. You did. You always there to tell me what I should be doing and what not. And even if everyone else is not there with me, you still will be and I love you for that.

You are awesome you are. You constantly tell me I never judge and maybe that’s one reason why I have people talking to me about their problems. I don’t judge most of the times. And you made me feel comfortable about that. We really go way back bro and even if distance separates us I know that if I need someone to just stand up for me you’ll be there. And how many people can be lucky as I am? If its not enough that I have friends here that will stand up for me, I have one in another country willing to do more than that.

You make me feel assured, you do. And times where we have serious talks are the best cause we totally help each other out.
I am glad you have such a wonderful family and a boyfriend cause they made you who you are today.You could have simply ditched all of us and enjoy your life there, but no, you didn’t.You make the effort to keep in contact, and thou most of the times the question asked is, ‘Any goss?’ hahaha, at the end of the day you never fail to be there. Never. And maybe we don’t text anymore, your out of the blue moon texts are something I really appreciate lor.

Remember the Chinese Old guy who made fun of me at the bus stop ? Funny moments like those are special cause you were the only one who knew that it happened and you will laugh at me !

So thank you for the love shown across the countries. I just hope someday I would either live there with you for good, or you would come back. But maybe it doesn’t matter, I don’t think it’ll impact us either ways. You my BFF. :)

And then one day we’ll go clubbing like how we planned be it here or down under. And we’ll go to the Zoo and I’ll try and leave you with the Elephants and make you get over your love for them after living with them. Hahaha.
The fact is your presence will be made to everyone in my life in one way or another. LIKE EVERYONE KNOWS YOU! And maybe that’s not good, cause most of the times you won’t like them. But THERE are a couple, nice as you are. And you will know that, though your not here physically with me, these people take good care of me too.

The painting you painted for me is forever cherished. And you remember the Paris Hilton you bought me like 359301987 years ago? I still keep the bottle lor. :) Your always missed bro.
I sincerely wish you get everything you want in your life and you succeed in them too.
When you start making lotsa money you better make trips down here frequent.

We’ll hit the zoo, the chicken rice store, and wherever else this July. We will.
My dearest bombie, I love you.

Okay okay, final one already. Hahahah.

HELLO YOU! You must wondering which’s for you and why hasn’t anything sounded familiar? Well this for you dear. From knowing you in lame BMC and fighting with you and from hating you see where we’ve came to?
I really hated you back then la,you were just irritating with your stupid moustache! Lol. Bastard ah.But seriously, I was like hating you to the core. And then slowly as we went into our O’s period, and we bonded. Really did.

Studying and memorising history together over the phone! Then came the exit of Christ Church on Northland, but I skipped that part and entered your crew.So thank you, for bringing so many other people into my life. They are all with me cause I attracted you to me and also attracted them yes? Laws of attraction baby!

Hahaha. But seriously, we’ve been thru the most heart aching rough patches. And I really mean heart aching la, cause its almost impossible to not have you there with me.
“I probably know you think I’m too busy with my life..i know..Just wanna tell you..no matter how distant I am from you. You’re still in my prayers and there’s not a day that passed without me thinking and missing you..Maybe I don’t show it out..Hope your doing fine..tc..”

Smses like these are always the source when you’re really busy and I thank you for sparing time to tell and assure me that you’re always there. And the time when you first gave me a ride home, and you were so happy then, your smiled still stays in my eyes. Hahaha.
Maybe sometimes I doubt where you really put me boy, but this is when you sweep in and tell me things to assure me. Cause you mean that much to me for me to feel so.
"Eh Pls la..I may not express to you how much I love you..Cause I dont know..But I sure love you.And you know that?''

Truth is dear, you are an emotional person. REALLY! Relax ah. But its good , cause girls would love you for that. Hahaha, and I am not wrong am I? But no, I meant as a girl and as a friend , sometimes I would wish a person understands how I really feel. And not many guys do, and you’re one of them.Maybe because you have two elder sisters and you know how its like to talk and to bond.

And so I don’t feel awkward sharing with you about the slightest thing on my head. From the smallest irritance I feel, or the jealousy I feel. You always understand.
The thing about me and you is we are very alike. And maybe that makes it easier to talk but at times you just get on my nerves and you know how to. But we always try and resolve it no matter what.And I thank you for always telling me that you always put me up there.

I made you the nicest birthday card 3 years ago remember?And something you may not know is the card was actually made by me and the help of Soulmate! So yes as I told you before, that night when I was asked to close my eyes and think of a friend, a friend who never put me in shit and even take the blame for me I saw you. And that was in 2006 and now its 2009. And its you.

Remember two Pangunis ago? When you were just sitting nearby the road with one out of your 1039483920 girl-friends-fans and I walked pass and you introduced me? ‘This my bestfriend.’ And I remember what I said then, ‘Er, do I even know you ?’ and you’ll scold me all. Hahaha.
But know what? Thank you, maybe we won’t know what’ll happen in future for us.But all these incidents make me a happier person.

Lately you’ve started motivating me too, something I never had from you. I still remember the first day of year 3, 6 weeks ago, you texted me this :
“Anyways its the first of your last year..Last Lap..Rock on! I’ll be at the finishing line , always supportin you k :) love you :)”, don’t just say, be at the finishing line aiite? Be there. And now that you’re going into your manhood I can only sit back and rely on all the awesome memories while you prepare to become a more responsible adult/police.

Spare me some free time thou k? I always told myself that, its during the NS period where we’ll really know how long we’ll hang in there. We’ll see.
And, have I said how awesome you dance? When you dance, you never fail to bring the house down.Really. And that’s a talent you’ve got. And with the diploma you just attained, you’re really stepping into the life you always wanted. Be it Entrepreneur or Police you’ll make a responsible one.
And when you talk to me about how you wouldn’t want your mum to work and you would to be bringing back the money for your parents just so they can still go on trips overseas together you blew me away. You love them a whole lot uh. :)

Apart from that,thank you for always wanting to be the first to wish me on my birthday and member would get down if he’s not and not wish me properly all! Ass. But seriously, I know how you always want me to feel important and always tell me things first. I love you for that. And remember how you were the only one not there during Deepavali in my place? Well I think that happened for a reason too, cause I got the chance to introduce you to my mum alone and it was a good impression.

Thanks for making the effort. I remember how we wanted to have supper one late night, and you would drive your dad’s van down and pick my bro and I up and we’ll go have supper together.
And not to forget how some people will fight with me and then secretly buy me Galaticos jersey when I didn’t want to. All these things mattered and they still do.And when I tell you how I feel you’ll always try your best to make me feel better. You would get pissed if I don’t share and that alone will make me laugh. You’re a psycho la, haahah, but a loved one okay!!

So cheers to all the years we’ve known each other. And all the squabbles we had. I like how people know me as *’s bestfriend than Shahl. Tsktsk. We’ll go a longer way I hope. I love you.

That’s all folks! I mean it when I say everyone mentioned here really had/have/has a special place in my heart. I thank you all from the bottom of my heart. Don’t call me and ask who is for who all leh. If its for you, its for you.

Reason for my post? To simply show my appreciation and my thoughts if you guy don't know what I really feel about ya'll, and to remind myself years from now while reading my blog about the bestest people I had with me.

Godspeed and my love.