HEART-MEDIA

Sooo..... Is he one of them?

2011-09-05T22:49:00.005+08:00

I finally decided that here's where I belong!
And its been WAYYYYY tooooo long I say!

So anyways, this post has been in my head for far too long now and even as I type I am not taking a moment to rethink or type cause I think I've been waiting for this chance to let it all out.

I would love to name my post title as : 'Is he one of them?'

So yeh, coming from the minority group of race in Singapore, I feel as if we have probably brought drama to a whole new level.
I used to ask my good friend Juen(A Chineseeeeeee girl, lol), to equate Indians.
And she often would tell me, 'Walan, so easy Indians = Drama', well well!
And not forgetting the fact that she surrounded herself with me and all my other friends for a good 4-5 years she understood us very well.

So coming back, I would like to give a heads up to everyone who reads this, guys or girls, Indians or Not.
But what the hell do some Indian guys think when they have a GF, I really wonder.

Like seriously.
This is what love means to them (From the typical Indian guy's point of view)
:

I am going go for the nicest and/or prettiest girl I can lay my eyes on, and it would be better if she doesn't have any bad habits because I have enough to split it on both our sheets.

I am going to control her so much because I need to show her that I can be her father/mother/brother/sister all at one time. But truth being I don't even know how to be a man.

And by controlling, I am going to make sure that she knows that she is not allowed to wear sleeveless unless with me (Because the slightest reveal of her arm makes him insecure, you stupid insecured bastard).

And she can't wear make up without my permission (BECAUSE MAKE UP MAKES HER LOOK PRETTIER AND I CAN'T HAVE PRETTY GIRLS AS MY GF BECAUSE I KNOW I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH NEXT TO HER).

She can't have any friends from the opposite sex because I'm so scared she might just fall in love with everyone because I'm such a bastard I can only imagine what kind of girl I deserve(Because you have probably tried and hit on your female friends).

She can't hug any more guys including her brothers/cousins/good friends because the thought of someone else touching her kills me inside and I might just die with the pain but I can hug any girls because my fucking heart is clean and green and has always been (SCREW YOU!).

She needs to be home by a curfew set by YOU because YOU ACTUALLY CARE, like WTF, you think you do a better job than the girls parents? And if you think you do a better job than her parents then it defines the type of girl you're with. But if she's already too good and you limit her to your curfews then, the issue doesn't lie with her or her parents but you.
Like seriously, you just cant accept the fact that she can have fun without you, thats all!!

She needs to sms/call me every damned 30 mins/ an hour if she's out with her family/friends, because I need to know if she's in danger(more like you need to know if she's having too much of fun without you), buttttttt!!! If I'm out with my family/friends, she can't disturb me because as guys we have to have our time(fuck you, because if your gf is in real danger and you're far away from her you would ask her to deal with it by her parents/friends' help) and girls don't.

She needs to tell the whole world via Facebook that she's in a relationship, because essentially I just wana warn everyone she's attached through her and I'm not man enough to tell guys who try and hit on her myself and also not that I'm proud of her but because I honestly don't know how to treat a girl but I'm gona try my level best and pretend I do AND listing her as my gf is one step to pretending.

She can't go club without me because when she was given birth , her mum and dad wrote an oath that their daughter will not club with anyone but her boyfriend.
But truth being, you just can't accept that and be mature, that, anyone can go to the club and dance and go home because you have been the kinda guy who would approach girls and try and ask them for a drink or dance and you're scared that your gf is going to be in the same situation, and also you're scared that she might cheat you(even if she will never) because you have cheated on her.

She can't drink alcohol because she doesn't know her limits and even if she does you're not keen because you know the wreck or chaos you have created when you get drunk.(This one also I can accept la to a certain extent.)

She needs to surrender her phone to you each time you meet her so that you can read all her smses and see her dialled/received calls because you wanna know whats happening in her life atleast through this manner, but no asshole, you're just scared that she might meet more beautiful people in her life and leave you cause you've been such a dirtbag all these while.

She needs to prioritise you before her own parents but you're always gona put up that drama that its your mum/family/brothers before her, but when things go downhill you always only go to her because you know that she's probably the truest thing to you besides your parents.

She can't miss any calls of yours because that means that SHE'S CHEATING ON YOU, and not that she really got busy. But its okay if you miss all her damn calls while you're doing your own shit cause she's supposed to understand.

And should you be less educated then you try and demotivate her because you're so afraid of what the society might say about when you don't even believe in yourself, let alone believe in your girlfriend.

And if you were to have a problem with her, she should not in anyways go on about in her plans with her family or friends, because she's supposed to be all sad and so its not RIGHT to be happy.
But its okay if I do it, because I'm a man, I can't show my real emotions to my friends, so while I go out and have fun she can't but actually I'm really sad we fight.
I am so sad that I really can't help but smile and laugh with my friends, but still I'm sad that I have a problem.
MIDDLE FINGER TO THAT TOO!!!!

And if the girl wants to put an end to all these, then I'm gona tie her down by just scaring her la, like not threatening know, just scaring only. Like so much of difference between scaring her and threatening her. (=.=)
But I'm gona threaten her to do something to myself cause I got no balls or words to help express how much I love her.
And if that doesn't work, then I'm going to threaten to tell her mum or dad about how close I've been with her, cause we're Indians and so if I talk about our physical closeness then she has no choice but to stay with me. And it does not matter if she's staying with me because of the threat la, but what matters is I can't have no gf, I got an image to keep up with what, I'm Tom Cruise what.
But actually I love her la.
Like wow, I really do.

And if I lay my hands on her when she makes me angry, she's not supposed to tell this to anyone la because I have a solid reason for doing so(but truth being her brothers/father might just kill you for doing so) and she shouldn't cast the bad light on me, because she did something wrong so I had to lay my hands on her.
And also, laying hands is such a gentleman behaviour so I'm gona keep it up with her.
But after that I'm gona tell her that I did that cause I cared too much about her.
Because you hurt someone physically when you love them the most.
Thats why child abusers gets arrested, because the jail is the house of love what.

And also, every night when she's gona be out she better make sure she remembers she's attached, but if I'm out with my guys its okay for me to hit on other girls because what she doesn't know doesnt hurt. But should she know about it then I'm gona convince(lie) to her that I would never do such a thing to her.

And should I miss my ex girlfriend, I'm gona meet her and talk to discreetly behind my girlfriend's back because if I'm gona be direct about it, it will hurt her.
But doing all these without her knowledge won't. (STUPID ASS! I think that I would respect a man should he tell me openly that he's gona be talking to his ex more that someone who does this shit.)
But say if she talks to her ex bf, thats it, I'M GONA KILL HER FIRST then kill him.
BECAUSE I LOVE HER! =.=

And I'm gona use all my knowledge on vulgarities when she fights with me and she's not allowed to retaliate with any because I'm a man, and I'm the one with a pride and she shouldn't behave such.
But truth is bastard, you don't have much in your language command to express what you're feeling, and should the girl use vulgarities on you, its only going to be words that best describes you. And deep down you know that every vulgarity that comes from her is probably gona be what you are, and you cannot accept it.

And honestly, this is nothing personal la, but I figured that all fucking Indian boys, need to grow up, I'm so sick and tired of hearing and seeing so many Indian girls who let these BOYS/WUSSES do this to them.
And silly Indian girls who let these boys do it, like come on already, if he does this now, then he's gona do worse in future. And if you want such a future then suit yourself, but if you don't then do something about it.

I'm not saying it simply.
Lets just say, been there, done that.
But its all good now, like we learn from our mistakes.
Right?

Because eventually I think we all will find someone who truly loves and be possessive about us in the right manners and never fail to express their love to us.
And maybe just maybe I have ...............but yeah!

To the rest, please be mindful is all I'm saying.

And should you girls feel as if your boyfriends falls in any one of the points mentioned above, then danger danger,because you're hitting rock bottom ,and its gona be hard coming out of that pit trust me.
Do it soon and do it neat would be my advise.

And I've been dying to have this post up for the longest time, so Indian Boys reading it don't take it personally, unless of course you're one of them, then I'm not sorry about it.
But I'm very sure many other Indian Men who read this would laugh knowing that I made perfect sense.

To end, Is he one of them?
If he is, then live with it, or live better without it.

Love love!

I wanna hit the club this friday!

2011-05-11T03:35:00.005+08:00

I wanna go clubbing this Friday night.
And so I pray and hope that my brothers decide to bring me! :)

Okay so.......
Was thinking about the different people I've met in my lives and how talented some really are.
And how some are really God-gifted like the MAGIC MAN in my life.
Like although we arent close or anything.
This guy is really blessed with some special powers.

And to trigger your memories, if you have been reading my blog since forever, here's my initial post about him!
I clearly remember how I was 16 when I first met him.

Ok the following paragraphs in blue would be my post about him! It was written in 2006 ah! So pardon my language and sentence structure and what not!

"Yeah speaking of which, I must so totally blog about someone so great!

So i saw him first when I was 11. But I didnt remember it. Yeah so it was 26 dec 2005.
I was over at my cousin-sis's house along with my 2 of my other cousin-sisters and my cousin-sis-in-law. Yeah so all 5 of us were chilling out and talking about random things. When my eldest sis , the one who's house we were in started telling us about her friend and her husband also started telling us how remarkably great he is.
So we got excited as my sis went on telling us how he even tells her past right on her face and up to what animal she'll soon see and what it'll be doing or what colour it will be in.
I was amazed that such a person exist yeah, so along with other sisters we told our eldest one to call him down. She thought it was a good idea too, and yeah she warned us that he may not come down today cause he has many people to attend to. Keeping our fingers crossed she called .
And she said, "I've got 4 girls waiting to see you...come over lah!"
AND HE SAID OK, he was currently seeing another person in marsiling then, so he said he'll cab over.

So we waited , and he came. He came, said hi and all to my sis and her husband as they were sec sch mates for long they are tight. So he went to kitchen, washed his legs saw us, near the dinning area and he turned immediately to me and said, "I ve seen you somewhere."
I felt so too lah, then my sis said it must be during her house warming.
Yeah then he settled down and looked at me again and said, " why you wanna be so stubborn? u can listen to your mum and life will be better"
And whoaaa, like he slapped me right then with those words. He just said it ok.
So he asked who wanted to see me first, and we agreed on the eldest to the youngest.
So I was with my cousin sisters who were 23 and 16 and cousin-sis-in-law who was 22.
So I was more than glad to be last, my 16 yr old cousin was born in Jan so yeah older.
And he asked my sis for her name and birth date and then it started.
Something real and magical.
The irony, but 100% true.
I'll continue this story tmr. Too much of facts.
Overload- "

Part 2 :
"(If you have no idea what Im talking, then read the previous post first yeh?)
The one who can tell you everything based on your name and bdae ? Yeah Muni Anne.
Yeah so, he was first seeing my sis. So he started telling her things, not asking her but telling her that at this particular age you did it and this happened and he confirms with her if it did happen or didnt.
And I remember the feeling I had within me looking at my sis nodding to all his says.
It was scary, the feeling's like, " damn, everything is out".
I even remember there was one thing he asked her," Your bf has india link right?"
I'm like okayyyy, I didnt even know she had one. So she along with the other elder sis laughed and said , 'yeah, he's from India.'
It was about an hour for him to tell her all that she should know, I'm not gona go into details cause its her life.
But yeh, for me I'l tell most of the things.
So while he was seeing for my sis, her bro and my bro then turns up at the house and im like shit lah, cause if he's gona say things my bro doesnt know then Im dead.
I was hoping he wouldnt.

Afterwhich it was my cousin sis-in-law's turn hers took an hour too, it got scarier by the minute. He started asking her if she had a grandma in her house who loves her alot(as in compared to her other family members), asked her if there was once a god photo which fell from the wall!!!
Yes, and I was thinking how, just how he could even tell her about her family members when he has never met her before!
God's gift.Yeah.
Next was my cousin's turn the one who was the same age as me.
She is the most silent one of us all . BUT when Muni anne started telling her things and asking her if it was true we were shocked! She did have a bubbly side to her yeah.
He told her to take part in the coming thaipusam(2006) and walk behind her father as she would get alot of blessings.He told her this on 26/12/05 so yeah, my cousin did take part this year.

Yeah while he was seeing her, my brother was with my cousin bro at the hall preparing for Liverpool match.
Yeah, and my eldest sis's husband(DIE-HARD FAN OF POOL) then turns to our direction and asks," dei Muni, today who will win?"
And he replied saying, " Liverpool, 2-0."
We were like whoaaa, alright we'll see how it goes.
Muni anne only saw my cousin sis for about 25 mins and then we all took a break.
And the reason was, they wantd a break before the finale!
Yeah, since I was the last one , they said it was gona be an interesting one.

And yeah, my turn. At 11.15 pm. I was really scared . Even my bro keep glancing back from the hall to see if it was started. And he asked for my full name and d.o.b and started writing things on the paper.
My turn!!!!
He wrote something, looked up at not me but my eldest sis and asked her, "16 years old can go club ah now?"
IM LIKE DIE DIE DIE. My brother turns and stares at me my cousin bro looks at me with his mouth open, my sisters infront widen their eyes.
I couldnt manage a sound.
And my eldest sis says," I dont know la, maybe can"
Then he turns to me and asks, " you went right?"
I decided to lie, I couldnt stand the pressure alright!
So I said, "No..noo...."
Then he said wait ah, and he went on calculating , and then said, " Ya la, you went twice"
OMGGGGG.
I did, in my entire life, twice . Honestly twice!
So he said, tell me the truth so I can go on telling you more.
No shit, I didnt want anymore already!

And he told me all kinda things. Untill this point my tears flowed and my sis suggested I see him alone in the room.
Yeah so he asked me if it was true I wanted to skip one paper for O levels!
I did! Along with Juen and Angela, we thought of not going for Geog, but we did in the end.
It was so damn true! Everything he said.
He asked me many personal questions too, things I never told anybody.
He assured me though. Told me to be prepared for my O's results as I'll do well for one subject only and chances are I'll pass all subjects.
And yes I have seven credits, ace-ing my Humanities.
I then couldnt take it, poured my guts out. Yeah. He told me how I have problems communicating with my mum. How I had friends who........

And then he told me to close my eyes, think of a friend who'll never expose me in trouble despite being in trouble togther. I thought, one face came to my mind and at the moment Muni anne says, " yes, that person is your true friend."
Astonishing but true. You know who? :)

I always loved Gaga's daddy car as it was a 7 seater. Always told myself I have to drive that.
And Muni told me, " You want to drive a 7-seater car right??"
Im like OKAYYY. He knows lahh! HOWWW?
Went on asking if I have ideas to migrate to Australia.
I did.I did.
Told me that where ever I go black follows me, should it be my clothes or shoes.He says its good .
Cause anyone who borns on a certain date, as for mine 26, 2+6=8.
Those adding up to 8, can never avoid black.
17 is another eg.
He told me, soon one of my friends will ask me to go msia with them.
Thats dumb right! I was thinking who would wana ask me to go msia wih them!
Yes and my friend did, my pri sch friend shoba just 1 week later.
GOODNESS.
He told me I'll see a house, with a horse infront of the house two of its leg up in the air and the other apparently on the ground. Should I see that I have to call him immediately. Something bad yeah, but I haven seen it. Thats good! I dun wanna scare myself.

He said many many things, told me to specifically pray to certain deities.
Shocked me with what I have done before.
Everybody else were allowed to take down whatever Muni anne said, except me, he said it was because mine's facing the bad time and so he doesnt want me to take down these things.
So he consoled me, told me to retake my O's no matter the results.
(at this point I haven taken my results)
I felt much better talking to him. When I came outta the room it was 12 midnight. Yeah.
45 mins of talking to him
And yes, pool match was over with pool win 2-0!
I SWEAR THIS IS TRUE.

He's awesome yeah. He' frigging famous at woodlands,yishun,Jurong!
Yeah.Since then I started contacting him.
After that day I changed myself yes for the better. Even he told me he sees some changes in me.
Over the months we met up frequently.He came over to my house to see for my mum, dad,bro and me again! We celebrated his bdae at my crib! Surprise one! That was great.
Yeah, so he's awesome.Really.I haven told everything he told me cause I cant, but yeah he actually predicted Tsunami before it occurred.
This year he predicted another thing, I would have told you guys already personally that is.
I can't write it down. Its a worldwide issue.
And yeah, he'll always tell me, "Soon you will forget me.... you gona be someone great, after that where can rmb me?You will be in Aus I in Singapore..."
I'll always laugh when he says it everytime we talk over the phone, but I can never forget a person like him.

Yeah thats alot, but its 100% true."

Ok so yeah, that was what I wrote about him. And sometimes I still remember each prediction he has made for me, my family, my friends and how it has all happened and I feel happy that I knew someone like him.
He made my life more special in some way.

Anywaysssss.
I'm feeling rather sleepy, its 4 am!
I've been up doing my reports.
Now I'm gona sleep.
Too tired!!
So good night ya'll.

I feel funny now.
I should be flying to Australia end of this year.
If anyone wants to fly with me let me knowwww.

Did I mention how I'm looking for suitors already?
Yes I am.
But I'm not gona be in a rship for the next few years.
I'm reinforcing and reminding myself.
So shut up everyone else.

BYE .

And come 27 MAY, its party for 1 month for me!
I really need to unwind.
I've got one whole month for that, so friends,lovies, please date me.

I miss Pravin but I'm not gona tell that idiot, and so if he reads it here then good!
:)

And to you, you know who you are, you're missed. :)

Arghhhh, Terrible Thursday.

2011-04-29T01:29:00.004+08:00

How adorable is my brotheR! Lol.

Life's like taking a turn at downstreet for a while.
So I need a breather and I'm doing all that I can for that!
I really need to get away!

Mum was in A and E earlier, like Thursday evening.
Had a terrible fall while mopping and landed on her head.
Bro and Dad brought her to hospital, and I rushed down after work, and out she came with a cast after 2 hours of waiting.
Heir-line Fracture. At this age. Yeah. Sucks.

To add on to all that headache, had to see my Dad get stress over his brothers and some other saga there. And I just get so broken seeing my dad so down.
I hate it infact.
But like he was actually spilling his guts out to me, and if not for the fact that I knew I had to listen and be there for him, I would have cried listening to all his worries.

My dad's such an awesome man. I am so proud of him. :)

So following that heart-aching evening, I reached home at 10 pm only to hear more shizzzz.
Screw all that thou.

The usual caller, called and made me laugh and forget everything as much as he didnt know what I went through that day.
But point was, I was happier after the call.

You do know that when I keep really quiet on the line while your talking(which is rare, cause half the time your not talking but singing=.=) means that I'm all ears and all that you say is going right to the brain and heart right?
So thank you sweetheart. :)

Premalove is super pissed with me for not getting back to her at all.
Lol! :)
But I'm making it up babyyyy!!

Missing my 448 lovies alot! The gems especially.
Need to see them on Sat!! Sunday's my rainbow's 30th day ceremony!!

I don't know if my dearest Tnesh is seeing me any soon. But I hope you do. :(

I'm getting really sleepy.
So I'm gna go now.
But my last two words in summary : Terrible Thursday.

Love love.
Kiss kiss.
:)

My Stay home Saturday =.=

2011-04-23T23:25:00.002+08:00

I can't believe my weekend just went off like that.
And all I did was stay home.
Like Friday was a stay home public holiday with the cousins, my awesome possom Seanpaul cousin stricftly ordered us to be home. :(

SO yes, but it was fun, we went Jurong point in the evening and did a bit of shopping.
My handsome brother bought me a top!
Thanks bro!! :)

And after that headed home, chilled a bit and eventually found myself so sian, all I wanted to do was sleep.
Woke up as early as 7 ish this morning as I was gona go temple, and Jurong to Sembawang is indeed a long way.
Reached temple at like 10 and saw the same old familiar faces.
Speaking of whom , Lakesh, is one amazing guy I've known after Lily.
I really appreciate the fact I know these guys despite the way of how I even know them.
Lets not go there.
But then again, let me just go there for a while.
I'm so pissed mad at you.
And I asked myself why did I even think you could be in my future?
What did you show me that I even considered?
Seriously, if I was to let the whole world know about your shit, like how you think I don't know you are, I am sure you would have to hide.
But then again, that's what sets us apart. I wouldnt.
You don't just say you love someone and because you can't have them you make sure everyone around you can't too.
But if thats what you want, then so be it. It will be given.
Since when have I ever denied you of anything within my capabilities.

But hear this once and for the last time : I AM NEVER COMING BACK!
I promise you.

And on a lighter note I decided to come up with of how I wish my boyfriend would or should be?
Lol.
But see its all my imagination, it may sound illogical,stupid, impossible, but HELLO I said its my wish! Hahaha.

First and foremost, I hope and pray and wish that my future BF knows where I'm truly coming from.
Like my family background, the way I was brought up, ruled over, controlled and everything.
And honestly takes the tact to respect my up bringing and me.
He doesn't need to be so good : and good here doesnt mean telling me 'I don't drink,smoke,have tatoos and only pray', but eventually you do all that oppositely?
But I want someone who's balanced.
Knows his work, and knows his game.

Like someone who wouldnt put leisure infront of work too often?
Someone who doesnt get drunk every damn day and ends up missing work?
Someone who doesnt smoke too much and gets his internal organs destroyed.
Someone who loves himself and eventually someone who respects his material body and not intoxicate it much?
Like it comes to the point he should maybe share my view : All that's good or bad should be done in moderation.

And neither do I want someone who DOESNT drink at all but smokes enough to kill him.
Or someone who DOESN'T at all smokes but drinks enough to be the only customer required at a bar.
I don't need extremes, I don't.
I want someone who balance it all up and still remain fun!?

But coming back, he should really bear in my mind of my family, and our culture and not for a second let my BROTHERS topmost, parents and my cousins even doubt him of his responsibility.
Like say, he shouldn't be well known for being a drunk so much so my brothers give me the red signal?
Or even be so famous among girls for the wrong reasons and give my sisters a room to watch out for me?
He shouldnt be anything like that?
And he should know how my cousins are more than cousins and too dear to me that HE should blend in perfectly with them?
Like I would hope he would initiate meet-ups with my brothers and hang out with them.
Or even with my other cousins and we would all hang out together?
Seriously, he must be well liked by my family.

And then comes to the friends part.
He should of course know of my girlfriends and guys and you know be able to click with them all the time?
Cause the similarities between my friends and I are we 're friendly?So from them it shouldnt' be an issue.
But then I hope then even after he enters my life I don't have to change the way I am to them in anyways, which I did previously?

He too should not for a second change the way he is towards his friends upon being my boyfriend?
And I will be more than understanding should he have bestfriends of the opposite sex.
I've been that friend to many of my guy friends I should know how I wouldnt want to lose a friend because he's attached?

See I wanna know him for a few good years and with each year I hope we both make positive changes to each other and be happy and so happy that we really are contented?

I wanna be able to hang out with him at a bar should he watch soccer with his guys as I love watching soccer?
And should I want to go home midway, he just needs to ensure that I get home safely, and he doesnt need to leave with me?
And moreover, should I bring him to my home as my boyfriend I hope he ensures,assures my DAD to take good care of me. For my DAD means a whole deal to me and vice-versa.
Like he should know how to carry himself and know my dad would be judging him and he should not give any reasons for my dad to even have second thoughts?
Of course I want to be able to share with my dad about him freely?

Like he should know my dad doesnt drink nor smoke so atleast with the saying : 'What you don't know don't hurt', he should maintain that image to my parents.
And I would also hope he never lost his roots, and should he be someone who prays I would be delighted?And not just CLAIM that he prays so much he thinks he's god and all that rubbish la =.=
And of course, for him to be musically inclined or even being a music lover would be the cherry on my cake.

And something really important for me, I really hope you would be able to carry an intellectual conversation with me?
Like I'm done with typical Tamil language thrown at my face and all that drama?
I need a guy who knows how to have a smart convo with me, to be able to discuss about Singapore's issues, to discuss about any current issues or anything under the sun.
But in English, like a respected man who loves his Tamil as much as his English but knows how to talk and when to talk what?
I need that.
Call me a discriminative woman, but I know what I want.
And this is what I want : A balance. Like Yin and Yan.
Opposites attract but they need to balance each other.

And alsooooo...he needs to be educated, having good prospects that I need not worry about should he even want to job-hop.
Be earning enough to keep us happy.
And most importantly someone who knows the importance of savings?!
And for him to have a savings from a decade ago would be a bonus for me only because it helps me be assured of his mentality and his responsibility.
Like really really, all these are crucial and so I would consider all that?

And coming back to the religious side , I would not stand him getting drunk on special days like Thaipusam/Panguni and getting involved in it whilst being drunk?
Like hello?Screw it, I would probably not even want to know someone who does all that.
Like I said, to know what to do when is important for me.
And should he be a participant in these big events I would most definitely be happy for him and pray along for all his prayers to be answered.
See the reason being, my brothers are all like that?
They maybe simply guys who work,club have a gf/wife but when it comes down to God and them they don't fail on it? They don't get DRUNK on these days and be annoying to the people around by dancing/singing drunk?
So I hope that guy would really get to know and realise about my family enough?

And can he also please have a car/car license?I'm done with guys hoping I wouldnt get a car till they get their license and their fucked immaturity.
But it would be ohsocool for him to have a car only because I'm done with a routine life with public transport and would want to be pampered just a little?
And of course I would call on days where I would want to travel in public transport with him only because we shouldnt get too antisocial(if its the right word) and comforted with the luxury of a car?
And strictly no driving, should he want to get drunk outside with his guys . :)
And once in a while to freak out is totally understandable, but say every weekend - NO?
LIKE A BIG FAT NOOOOO!
:)

And and and, did I also mention that, he should trust me and I would trust him with time of getting to know each other and we should try our level best not to disappoint each other when its trust issue?
Yep.

And coming back to my weak point : Singing.
By God's grace should he be able to sing , I WOULD BE OMGOMGOMG EXCITED and be his biggest FAN.
And he can call me anytime of the day to randomly sing a song and that itself would be a surprise.

I want a guy who knows how to plan days/evenings or surprises?
Like a guy who knows how to treat his lady well?
Someone who observes you and like hear you out carefully about places you mention and when weekends comes he calls you and says, 'Okay we're going out tomorrow, pick you up at 7' , and drives down to the place she mentioned days back?
Like omg,how effing sweet would that be?

And despite being a bf, he knows how to have little games with you?
That are harmless but eventually the aim of the game is to basically make you miss him a little more each day?

Ah that said, I need to close my eyes and head to bed thinking of him!
Lol, will continue this tomorrow!
As abrupt as this may be, I love you people! :)

And and and, I'm missing you.

???

2011-04-21T08:11:00.003+08:00

Feeling super super down.
And I don't exactly know why?
Like....omg, there's something eating me up inside.

I know I'm never used to blogging my down side on my blog at all, but screw that, this is after all my blog.
The thing is, I never want to attract too much of attention on the note that I'm down?
But here I am typing all these asking myself why am I feeling off for no reason?

And if there's a reason, is it worth it?

See, the saying, once bitten twice shy never worked on me.
And I think that's more than what I should let on.
But then, by the time I'm bitten thrice I lose myself completely.

Argh!!!
I'm really really losing it.
I need to just get out of everything that is routine for me.

My mum got so mad at me last morning for some dishwashing reasons and started saying that I'm more interested in guys issue than washing the plates.
IM LIKE OMG OMG OMG?
WHERE THE HELL IS THE LINK?
I mean, I'm 22 and if you want your daughter/son to be interested in the same gender then its a problem.
And not that she knows of all the shit I've put myself through to say all that? She doesn't la.
And if she does then she'll know I'm really done. I will not be in a relationship for the next few years and this I'm damn sure of!

Yes I have awesome family to share my sorrows with, but then there comes time then you have search within. Cause its not about sharing to reduce the load, its about absorbing and letting go.
And this is the space where I can.
So bear with me if you're still reading.

Then again, I can't continue.
Fcuk what I'm feeling.

That was rough.... Thing to do now is try and forget it.... I guess I don't quite mean that. It's not a thing you can forget. Maybe not even a thing you want to forget.... Life's like that sometimes... Now and then for no good reason a man can figure out, life will just haul off and knock him flat, slam him agin' the ground so hard it seems like all his insides is busted. But it's not all like that. A lot of it's mighty fine, and you can't afford to waste the good part frettin' about the bad. That makes it all bad.... Sure, I know - sayin' it's one thing and feelin' it's another. But I'll tell you a trick that's sometimes a big help. When you start lookin' around for something good to take the place of the bad, as a general rule you can find it.

And to you : my blog hater(Probably the only one who dislikes my blog), if I even said anything wrongly to offend you then let me know?But don't just ignore?

I'm out.

short update

2011-04-19T08:39:00.002+08:00

I think that despite all the drama's that been happening, I am so fortunate to have so many gems around me.
Like each of them have not proved me wrong in anyways.
From lilygem to his bestfriend, to my one and only LOVE babycakes to Pravin and to everyone la basically.
Thank you hor for everything.
You guys are loved so much by me and I appreciate you all so much.

My life's always been circulating with drama I must say.
Like the moment I had a BF it became even more dramatic, even though it ended wahhh the drama won't la.
But screw that, I'm good with everyone around me.

And maybe just maybe, I'm interested in .....
But no much juicy updates for now except that the subject's niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. :)
And has been there for me and that's really sweet.
But see, I don't want trust people who can sing anymore!
CANNOT LA.
Lol, but this one sings damn good ah. (Break the jinx thou pls :) )

Okay, but like I said, I'm so sure I'm getting arranged married off in about 5 years.
27 too early uh?
7 years then.
Lol.

And, I am waiting for the Gem's word to come true now, for upon doing so much all I got back in return was shit? And all I await now is your JUDGMENT day.
I swear when that happens I know that its a notsounfair world.

Ok, madly in love with the Manthiram Vechayae song.
And really madly in love with the guy's voice.

So this my plan for this weekend!
24 APRIL - EMCEE JESZ hitting Downtown East and so I'm gona be at his booth WITH him chilling :) Yayness!! (Many photos!)

31st April : GEEVISHA'S 30TH day prayer.

6th May - 7th May : Unwind session with the cousins : CLUBBING

Yeah! My weekend's are gona be awesome, and it would even be more if I saw you in between. :)

And to you my little love : Fret not, as we somehow saw this coming we just didnt prepare ourselves together but deep down we knew there will come this day and so it did pretty early.
But don't be too sad, for everyone else whom you regard as your brothers will share the weight with you and as for me I'll always love you hor. :)
Don't worry!! Just do your best for your studies okay?

But as for you my awesome possom fantastic PAST : Gloat, Smile, Chuckle whatever la, I'm having the last laugh for sure.

Love love.

On a side note : You've got me tripping....

My confession :)

2011-04-13T21:13:00.005+08:00

So let me be RANDOMLY SHOCKING.
I had a relationship.
I did.
And I was not supported by my family to continue but still as a human being you know you can NEVER listen to people and you have to actually go thru shit before coming out of it?
Well of course I did that!
Typical, but lesson will be learned what.
So doesnt matter.
Well this relationship taught me on how tolerant I can be.
Yes I was a total control freak at times. Cause I had to la.
Situations, but I NEVER ONCE MISTREATED my partner la.
I pampered and loved like nobody's business. I don't regret, I will never but I wished I pampered and loved myself instead.
I lost myself in that period I had a boyfriend.
Wow! I lost alot, but I thought it didnt matter cause I had a boyfriend whom I hoped I saw a future with.
But it was a painful journey each time I FELL I only told myself I can work this out I can I can.
But who knew what was running through the other party's mind?
Cause there were too much of negative emotions and thoughts in theirs that they stopped thinking about me for the longest time.
I had to ask for things which shouldnt even been asked for.
It was a horrible thing to go through cause it came to a point I didnt know what I was hanging on for?
But still I held on, I was devastated at the way the change was hitting me.
How can a person completely change from whom they were in a short period.
I was in denial. I got blamed for the change even.
But if he ever took a min to sit down and ponder about how else I improved his life it would have been different.
SO shit happened. Brothers had to hear about it. Things ended on the ROUGHEST note when I tried to delay the end of us, as I wanted a smooth end.See the thing is, I realised regardless of how gentle you want to be about a break, or how tactful it must be something mutual!

Its of no point if here I am trying to be gentle about us going our own ways where there you are JUMPING VIOLENTLY about everything. In the end the one who wants to be soft with their decision ends up get depressed,tired, angry, sad.
Thats what happened.
Depression was what happened.
Friends were there. Especially two who made the trip to my school to talk to me on the pretext of a surprise! LOL.
But sisters started looking for out me.
It was too painful cause I know I didnt deserve that.

I'm not saying I was the best gf in the world but for you I was the best you can get and lose.
I was. And only your family will realise that. And by family I mean people who really would know what I went through and not what they tell themselves to believe about you. Of course some 'brothers' of yours would beg to differ, but they know shit! And I mean shit man. Seriously.

See I was at a low point in life, when I had to hear about my brother's friend's sister taking the plunge because of her failed love life.
Affected me more than anyone could imagine.
Seriously, I found myself talking to the girl who by the way is one the most beautiful girl of my age!
I was literally asking her in my head, why? Why?
She had an awesome family and talents, and job, and everything, so why?

Couldnt accept the way 'LOVE' can affect people.
Wah seriously.
So I'm not for a moment gona say ohhhhhiwasossadbfwassomeansonowiamtheonetobepitied all!
I am only saying, its sad. WAS SAD.
That I had gone through all that when I thought love could happen to me.
BUT NEVER AM I LOOKIN AT THE WORD FOR THE NEXT 3 YEARS!
Cause after that I'm getting my mum to arrange marriage me off.
LOL.
But seriously.
Yes we had our joy, we had very little of it, that was the problem.
And I wasn't getting all that I deserved and he couldnt give too but it became intangible things that he couldnt give and thats when you know you have to make a decision.
I WAS LOST BEYOND.

Well well.
AND SO, THIS IS IT.
I'll never look back on your chapter.
I did tell you that before? That if I make up my mind for real I will never. Yes I will have troubles getting over it la. And I did! I still do cause Singapore is fucking small, and at every corner I take I somehow see you. And it was far painful than anyone can imagine. I became less sociable, I became so selfish. All I cared about for 1 year was you, how was I to walk on when I promised you, that you will be the the only one? But what the fuck am I to do when your promise was to mistreat me as far as you can?
I'll never hit that chapter again.
I will never forget you too. Cause now I know what pain can be derived from love and I'll remember the pain and not get close to feeling the same in future.

I wish you well, where ever you can be.
Like I always said, your head's not in the right place and will not be for a few years.
But if you ever clear it you might just have a good future ahead.
And getting the same image you once portrayed? Nah...you really have lost it.
But we all do don't we? Lost our image, our respect but we have to get it back.Earn it back.

Like how you can never stop calling me names even after it all ended?
Well if I was a whateveryoucalledme I would have never lasted this long with you, for the moment you went beyond your limits in the way you treated me , I would have showed you the finger and left. And if I was a whateveryoucalledme I wouldnt for a moment respected your likes and dislikes even after the first break. But damn, not worth it. Not at all.

But I respected and loved not wrongly, but the wrong person.
I hope you find yourself in the long future and thats the only wish I have for you forever.
AND EVERYTHING ELSE IS NOT AS IMPORTANT AS THAT.
I gave you the best 20th, remember it, live with it. Cause every gift given was with love. Even the gifts my friends presented you with.Not forgetting the gift that has my signature on it. :)
Goodbye now. And for the longest time.

And if in future you ever hear of me being married/attached or even dating, please atleast prove me that your love was true by not approaching me or even thinking that you have the rights to question me. Its over loved one - once.

I am not gona for a second say I'm perfect know, I have my flaws most definitely. But the thing is I learn from it.
Even after my bros found out about my attempt at the rship AGAIN they forgive both him and I for making that blunder. I thought they were being selfish, but in actual fact I was.
Or everyone were? but I didnt ask myself if I could really do this at the start? So that was the trigger really?
And now, even if I want to move on it hurts. Cause I'm done for real with guys.

Maybe girls now? LOL.
I was kidding.
I'm still homophobic thanks.

But during these rough times, I still want to thank God for bringing in all my family members and friends to shower me with their love and attention.
For without which I would have been in a serious state of depression.

And till this moment I would say, he was an awesome guy.
Awesome son,brother,friend,musician,vocalist, devotee ? Perhaps.
But he just coudnt be perfect and had some drawbacks in the bf part but thats all good.
We all have our flaws to repeat myself, we all do. :)
So I'm parting with heart that was once heavy but now light ? lighter? Yeah.

Love you all!

A LONG ONE!

2011-02-20T21:12:00.010+08:00

That my new bangs and I'm loving it despite the comments its bringing meeee from my dearest cousins,oswind and my BROTHER! =.=
LOL.

Been a long while.
Shit happens and so it did for me.
But I guess accepting it and walking on is the ONLY choice given.
So yes, Granny left.
Was a painstaking sight to see a life live for the last few hours, and to actually witness it go within hours is something I never thought I could handle.
But yes, I watched her pass off.

Took urgent leave that day, 28 Jan.
Went to visit her in the morning and stayed by her side till late noon by then which every other cousin,uncle and aunty arrived as somehow we knew it was anytime but no one really anticipated that day itself?
And we went for a early dinner at 5 ish and came back at 6 ish to figure that the little movements she had in her arms were also fading off.
Things became a bit more tensed, and more people came.

And by 8 we all somehow coincidentally gathered around her.
With her head on her first and favourite child's lap, she took her last minutes.
With her last drops of milk down her throat we saw her fade....and eventually still.
Cries, tears, sadness engulfed me for the next three days, along with the package came fever,flu and headache.
But to send her off for one last time took it all away.
She was an absolute Gardener My grandma, and so with her heart as big as the universe and soft as a flower petal, came MANY MANY MANY flowers for her send off.
Came MANY MANY MANY FOOD for all.
Thats how many stomachs she has fed. And how many flowers she has taken care off.

She went down a royal flight down, from the 19th storey on the shoulders of people who loved her.
And into her carriage and finally right into the place we don't really know off but we call it the arms of God.
Since then, family has had a fair share of unhappiness,happiness, arguments and what nots.
But we all agree on one thing, her love will always bind us together.
And we'll keep that going to our fullest capabilities.
Rest well Atta. 'Byeee...byeeee' - the way you say it.
A wonderful life you have lived and led, its our turn now with your guidance.
Love you now, and ever.
Your last grandchild, Chalini - as you pronounce it.

Apart from that separation we've been through, I'm being very very tired since.
I have no time to really get more than 7 hours of sleep!
My in-house training began.
And waking up at 6.30 on alternate days has been a must.
Class is becoming tougher with more expectations and more behaviour from my kids!
Lol, but they cheer me up they do!
They are just lovable.
Lesson plans kill me and I really really want to do it before the weeks begin to save more time for writing in my kids individual communication books!
That really cuts a lot of time.

Valentines day was like a normal day for me!
Last year's was totally different, lol but yeah!
Memories.
Last year's was a GROUP valentine.
Not even double dates!
But fun fun. :)
I wouldn't erase them off but keeping it at the right place.

But two days after Vday we had a post singles dinner with sisterlove and her friends.
It was fun for I haven't seen them in 8548302032 years!
I really missed them all so much especially two of them!
Uma bro and KESU! :)
It was nice catching up but we had very little time together, or time isn't just enough when its with them.
I love my times with them, and I owe it to my sis for bringing me along like an extraa lol.
But yes times with them are one of the best.
They really keep me occupied.
And I got my Vday gift from my sis! A ROSE! Thought fabric kind? :)

We had Seoul garden leading to smelly hair but a wonderful evening! Thank you thank you.
See the part that I WAS really amazed was how I was just poking fun at this Mango(That's what I call this person) telling him how he was supposed to buy me a gift and all. And like Member suddenly disappears from the dining and goes toilet.
But see I thought he was gona come back with a gift and ya it would be predictable.
But no! Lol.
He somehow hid it at the front or somewhere along with another gift for my sister and like presents it to me after we're done with dinner and after I come back from the toilet.
And he's like 'NAH! YOUR GIFT THAT YOU ASK.' - LOL.

But like see, he didnt even mean that, cause if he did then he shouldn't even get me any what, I don't matter at all.
Then I realised, there are really some NICE PEOPLE around, like genuinely nice.
And the gift spoke more as I used to always ask him to get me gums if he goes JB to pump his bike and he would always not give it though he buys it? Cause he forgets?
And this was my gift from him :

SUCH A BIG ASS GUM! Lol! But cute righttt. Its like a pillow so yeah. I love it.
Thank you so much! :)
That gift really made me laugh la, funny how he could think of that at the time.

So yes my post Vday dinner was great, following that, on Friday I met my hotloveeee who by the way is the most funniest girl ever and she really keeps me laughing and entertained always.
And had a small reunion with old irritating friends like OSWIND and Ramp.
Lol.
Irritating goes to Os of course.
And that was my Friday.
Following on, Saturday was an emotional day for my brother.
Lol.
But yeah, :) I learned alot about him that one day.
Thanks to his friend. - much loves to you!

And then we had a dinner with the cousinsssss! :)
At Turf City for another steam boat and it was THE FUNNEST YET SCARIEST night ever.
You guys know my FEAR FOR CATS RIGHT?
ITS NOT ORDINARY FEAR KNOW, its ailurophobia know.
Its serious hor! NOT FAKING ANY THINGS.
I CAN'T EVEN STAND A CAT PLUSHIE COMING CLOSE TO ME EVEN.

So there was one! THAT ANNOYED AND ATE THE LIFE OUT OF ME.
Its a steamboat layout right? So count on it for being smart and catwalking around to feed itself.
I had to run here and there as several times, or make it MOST of the times it was within 2 meters to me.
So cousins were nice enough to chase it away each time it goes near. Like I think about 40 times one by one chased for me.
One point it RAN TOWARDS ME, AND I SCREAMED 'ARGHHHHHH!' and the everyone at the steamboat area looked at me. I COULDNT HELP IT!
I ran away while screaming too.

When I came back they were all laughing at me, but I was in a state of shock, my heart was beating so fast, almost hyperventilating and next thing I knew, I was crying so hard.
REALLY!
My heart is that weak for these ANIMALS.
And that shocked my cousins, oh and by then my bro left for work so he didnt see me cry. =.=

He would have laughed most I bet.
But really I'm serious.
I took 15 mins to calm down and continued eating. :(
I can't believe I cried. But the state of shock plus fast beats of my heart was a moment never to forget. =.=
CAT WAS STILL LINGERING AROUND but they gave me the 'safest' seat so I ate comfortably.
But following that was HOLLAND V FOR SWENSENS! YAYNESS! :)

I had walnut rocky road with my handsome brother and the rest their own ice cream before calling it a night and I cabbed home! :)
And come today, I woke up, lazed around, did my lesson plans and register files and now blogging this thinking of where can I fly off to this year?
My BFF'S dead!
AMY PLEASE TEXT ME!

LOVE YOU ALL.

And it was through my brother's friend that I realised that my brother had a bestfriend all these while, and it was................................

ME. - Touched much. I teared reading that piece of news. :)

Much loves!

Oh and to you busy bee! You can continue being busy and going out with all your other friends.
I'm never asking you out ever. BYE! =.=

And you! I see you had a great birthday. :) Hope you enjoyed it.

OH AND THIS IS MY 40022 VIEWS ALREADY.

Forty thousanddd! Woooooow la!

We all failed to think about consequences and thus the loss

2011-01-09T13:00:00.002+08:00

The below post would be full of angst, but see, I rarely feel this. If I DO it must be really something.So my readers, ignore it after you read it.

To a wonderful friend of mine. :)
Such amazing friend you were.
For I was truly happy with your comeback.
But now, look, you don't deserve anything to come back.
Like if you would even dare look me in the eye and tell me things I would have respected you as a MAN more than a friend.
But wow, hearing things I had to hear from someone whom I barely know for a year, while you who know me and was CLOSE to me for 8 freaking yearS?
BRAVO LA!

Don't you ever let me hear you say shit, cause I gave you ample chance to come and tell me things.
BEST FRIEND?
LIKE FOR REAL?
Please la, a bestfriend who would let an opposite sex come in between SHOWS alot.
OKAY?
So drop everything, once bitten twice shy right?
Don't ever think I'll respect you one bit.
I will never.
YOU COMPLETELY LOST ME.
You knew how you did the first time and how we both regretted the pause in between.

I don't care who tells me shit know, but the simple FACT THAT YOU OUGHT TO BE BREAKING IT TO ME was whats most important.
But of course, every selfish man has his own story, and so you might have yours too. But shut the fuck up cause I am not giving you a chance to say it. For I waited for what ? 3 weeks? for you two to play behind me and then come up to me and TELL ME I SHOULD CUT PEOPLE AWAY just so you think I WILL REJOICE that you did this behind me, that the person I should have cut away would result in me TAKING IT LIGHTLY?
Fat chance.
Screw you.
And your decision made.

Total failed friend.
Seriously.
I will go on as much as I want in my space, and I hope you actually feel something and call me.
You freaking know how this will jeopardize things between me and the two people involved.
BUT YOU CARED MOST FOR YOURSELF.
You know how tons of people INCLUDING you told me I should care most about myself, because you guys KNOW PERFECTLY I care for everyone more than myself? WELL FROM YOU I LEARN NOW TO CARE ABOUT MYSELF AND ONLY MYSELF.

You know, and IF YOUR GONA SAY THIS WAS UNFORESEEN, then please, before I show YOU the finger, you better take it back.
UNFORESEEN - totally la.
Thats why when I first knew you even made a casual move, I said look, step back cause you know what the reaction would be if the party involved gets to hear about it. REMEMBER?
You who stopped talking to a girl previously because she had a link to him didnt STOP you again?
Cause love happens la.
Cause love is blind, but I didnt know its closes your eyes on friendship also la.
Not bad not bad.
You two made such selfish moves la, but the manipulation in your wait?
Was even more selfish.

Seriously, I am so effing pissed right now that if you appear in front of me, I'd actually scream my head of at you.
Like when you went into camp you began your game, after knowing I know also you wanna play means, this one not maturity all know, this one bullshit.

The guts you have in other issues all something to be praised about la uh.
But when its comes to solid friendship ah, you suck.
Really, don' ever think this will subside la, the least you could have effing done was call me la.
Value my friendship alot?
BE SUPPORTIVE?
Dont wanna waste any more years apart?
Ey, please la, seriously ah, think before you talk.
Okay, keep this crap to yourself.
For if I see you, I'm giving you the nastiest look coming close to spit being drawn.

You will play your game and I have to bear it upon myself and ontop of that support you?
Please, I know you better than anyone.
And knowing you....... means.....alot.....you know....I know...

A guy who can do this to a BESTfriend...can do this to anyone else.

You wanted me to cut people out, cause those people didnt prove their worth, and how did your prove yours? Thank god I didn't cause he was there each time in my life.
At my highest and lowest and messiest.
AND HE WOULD NEVER DO THIS AT THE BACK OF ME.

Well done la.
Such act given for the past 3 weeks.
How did you manage it la? Wow.

WRONG IS WRONG.
Getting people to support you in something wrong will NEVER make it RIGHT.

Karma is bitch, mine hit me.
And yours will.
This is it.

GOODBYE!

short up to dateeee

2010-12-31T00:28:00.003+08:00

Today was the best day of my life perhaps.
I'm super tired.
Running around from north to south west to central!

BUT SERIOUSLY.
I'M SAD.
AMY'S LEAVING IN LIKE 8 HOURS TIME.
I'll miss her.
She'll always make my day.
Always always.

And today we spent the last evening together, romantically with pasta and coke. lol!
:) i love you bff.

Today's day 2 of work.
Tomorrow is day 3 and then holis again and then full time back!

SO ANYWAYSSSS!
Today I had like a message forwarded to a couple of people.
So like it goes something like 'its 2010 to an end, so time to confess something to me or ask me something and i will answer u truthfully' shit?
And the answers i got was fantanstic!
LOL..

From this dance lovie of mine she said : 'I always thought you had the most friends and I always wanted to be as connected as you baby! Hahahahhaha :) so lame right!?' LOL!

And from Oswind, he had this to ask, 'When are you seeing me!' - LOL!!

From my Seanpaul cousin : 'Do you miss me?'

From my childhood sweetheart Thadjjjj : 'I am in love with you... :) How about you?' - LOL LA!
Never changed one bit this one.

And this sweet one said , 'i may have said this b4, but it wun hurt to say it again..ur one awesome friend..ur always there n always go all out 4 people u love...u motivate them and feed them with confidence and they get there in the end..im lucky to have met someone as pretty and as awesome as u...lovelove' -AWWWWWWWWWW PLEASEEEE!!

MY SUPERSTAR SAID ' YOUR CUTE!!!' :)

And Sarvesh doll said, 'Your awesome in doing eye make up, you shld venture more on it. you'll do great!'

And my closer ones havent repliedddd!!!

So wait,

Song to die for. Awesome.

I had this certain monkey annoy every nerve in my body yesterday.
Wahhhh. He can make me believe all kinds of nonsense. ARGH!
Really, I am so naive.
So 2011 resolution, be LESS NAIVE AND MORE ALERT!

No new look for 2011 for me. :(
broke liao.
oh dear.

Pravin!!!! oh yes, how can i forget, saw mr mia king and we had a few deals.
And surprisingly he's keeping up to it more than what we dealt for.
awwww,sweetest thing you said was that I'll always mean something to youuuuuu!

And also my year end post is gna be delayed but juicy nevertheless.

I'm freaking tired!
I can't do this la!!!! WAHH!!

I made alot of mistakes this year.
Alot, and sometimes I even repeated them.
But from today, this very moment I'm never turning back to the old mistakes.
I'm never.
I may have been clouded these days.
I may seem vulnerable. I may have still done things I shouldnt. But this is it.
I'm deserving the best. And that's not anything near you.
But watch me roll now, its hard to be on par.

My updatesssss

2010-12-26T19:39:00.004+08:00

Awww, rare photos that I actually can look pretttyyyy!! :)))

Been busy having the fullest fun with the little holidays I've got left.
And thus, this post is gona be photos much.
My life is pretty much exciting as always.
But excitement comes with shit sometimes.

So anywayss....
Some old photossss

Went to this nice+eerie place to chill with sissy's and her friends.

We played this super dangerous game, like omg, I would never want to play it la.
Its called Silent Library and its seriously the shit! Power game but scary laaaa.

Try guessing how the games goes....

This kidrock loser is by far the most amazing male 'karagattam'(a dance involving the balance of a pot or something on your head with no support) dancer!

My sister's face here is the bomb.
SUPER CUTE LA !!!!
Hahaha.
This was while we were playing that Silent Library game.

The loser who often annoys and seldom entertains me.
My bangs is growing uh, I need to trim liao, or its back to side frinch.
Oh and this loser sings exceptionally well for those ollllldddd tamil songs. And it actually sounds like the original singer itself.
But his brother is way way way talented.Lol.
Like omggggg!! His rendition of this song hasn't left my head.
I told ya'll I'm a sucker for people who can sing and all.

SO SUPERSTAR CAME DOWN TOWN as he had some shooting to do, wanted me to gather some friends.
But I didn't till the very last day he spent here, and I called Shalini and Rupini!
I am sure they had some fun coverage!

Attam 100 Vagai Host, Denise

Jesz and Lookalike ! Pretty uh sheeee!

Miss Beautiful and Jesz

Sweeeettttt faceeeee Rupiniiii

And lastly,

I like this photo! I think it was a great shot!

Some pictures of me ...

Reflect reflect.

I do it better than this one right? Comparing to my first picture and this.

WENT FOR THINESH'S DHOOL!
WAS AWESOMEEE POSSSOOOMMMM BLOSSOOMMM!
Seriously, I was screaming my intestines out.
He was good la, he belongs on that stage.
:)
I am in a dilemma now, was so sure I wanted JOKERS to win it and now I'm like TLC perhaps?
Lol.

And, today someone sang a song for me to sleep! YAY! :)
Sweet much.

I had a good times with the sisters on XMAS.
It was fun! <3>
Okay, loves and misses and I'm out.

For all the loves who was there for me with me on Tues night thank you all.
For I would have really been going crazy without the phone calls,texts.
For a friend I got to know just, you're amazing, so thank you M.
And for Thinesh, you always always always never fail to be there.

As for my brothers, my sincere apologies.

As for YOU!
Well, my words never carried any weight for you, so this time, I'm not saying anything more.
But you'll learn. :)

As for this asshole whom god forbids I see your face, I wish you well and out of my sight for good.
With that immaturity you'll go a looooong way la. Super mature la you actually. You'll never grow up.
Wow, thats amazing know, for a 21 year old not to grow up yet. Take your time kiddo.

:)

Lookalike's birthdayyy

2010-12-17T03:27:00.002+08:00

So my sissy's birthday was a BLAST!
It really was.
Having planned with like 2 of her friends to plant her a surprise at the temple it happened nicely and it was sweet ay! :)
So yes!

After templing, we apparently were taken to the best mee pok noodle shop at bukit batok.
WOW, IT WAS TOO AMAZING LA THE NOODLE.
YOU GUYS SHOULD TRY IT LA AT 413 OR SOMETHING.
WOW!!
I left like 2/3 of the noodles =.= while my sister and her friend had their plates cleaned.

And then went to chill at my sister's friend's place and brought babylove over too!
He was having fun despite the new environment.
And then we like chilled some more and then proceeded to get more friends and then off to Chevrons for karoke timeeee!!
And so it was absolute fun.
Got to know some really funny and nice people.

BABYLOVE

Karaoke session was great.
I got a shock of my life as the number of awesome singers were too much!!
AND YOU GUYS KNOW HOW MUCH OF A SUCKER I AM FOR SINGERS.
AND OMGGG, ALL OF THEM HAD MAJOR STRENGTHS IN DIFFERENT AREAS.
ONE COULD MELT US WITH HIS VOICE, ONE COULD SOUND EXACTLY LIKE AN OLD TIMER.
WOW!!!
I was astonished.
So so so impressed.
Was a great evening and wonderful experience.

I had alot of fun.
Especially with this kidrock loser.
He's so funny.

And I'm very tired.
I know I've delayed my post for too long now.
So I'll come back with a better one.

Much loves,
Me.

AND OMG, I AM IN LOVE WITH A SONG.
And its on repeat.

An afternoon with a beautiful soul!!

2010-12-15T00:19:00.004+08:00

Today I met this kind soul.
He's not someone whom I may have mentioned alot but perhaps a few times in my blog for like some reasons.
But nevertheless, he taught me new things today.

For the first ever time, I actually feel as if you don't have to be close to someone for someone to listen and talk to you.
Well this soul didn't.
I didn't know him personally much?
Like just Hi-Bye only?
We don't even chat on the phone, until the day before where he made the call to ask the whereabouts of our meeting.

And he spent 4 good hours with me, listening and talking.
He's seriously super genuine la. He came with a smile, and he brought so much of smiles to me. And I'm never gona reveal who la!

But yeh... So he listened to me speak and he didn't judge for a second.
And I was amazed.
Waited till a pause came for him to express what he felt.
And speaking things with him got me thinking more and realising more.
I can't get anymore explicit.

And when he started speaking is when I honestly felt so touched....like he would actually maintain that eye contact and give you that assurance that he perfectly knows what you are feeling,thinking and he's there to share with.

And from the way you respond you would know he listened.
Such assurance was really good from a friend whom you know, is barely a close friend?
But see, I like that kinda relationship.
That we opened up even though we arent close friends we felt better , well I did and it eased us up.

So thank god, I made the move to meet you up, for you really enlightened my life! :)

I still think you make an awesome person,son,brother,FRIEND and bf too! :)

Which leaves me the question he asked , 'What's friendship? Can you define?'
Having you in one's life would certainly fulfill the definition friendship M! :)

And all the best for your future which is gona be on cloud 9,literally.
Lol, you're great! :) much loves and respect to you.

On a side note, lookalike's birthday was a goooood one!
Like seriousy!!! will blog with photos soon?
I'm kinda tired now.

I'm still feeling so touched after meeting the guy mentioned above.

Oh and and and, my FUTURE BOYFRIEND BETTER BE ONE HELLUVA SINGER UH!! Its like a MUST! (I've had this thinking in me since the age of 16, even my first crush could sing leh!)
Seriously, I'M A SUCKER for people who can sing,play musical instruments, basically musically inclined, but singing EVEN MORE. And like, you have to be a good singer la. If not I'm not looking at you. But at the same time MUST KNOW HOW TO TREAT A GIRL RIGHT TOO! :)

Much loves, much loved, me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOOKALIKE

2010-12-13T00:00:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY ONE AND ONLY SISTER!

You’ve been there for me, rain or shine.

Car accident or not!

LOL!

Seriously, you’ve been THERE as a listening ear, leaning shoulder, comforting hug and advisable words.

Thank you so much for never failing or bailing on me.

I treasure you a lot akka. If there’s one person I can open up about anything its you.

I really see you as one, and hope that you would continue to have a blessed life, and perhaps before the next birthday find my brother in law!

I’m excited for you.

May all the negative vibes change into magical positive ones and enlighten your soul from within.

You have been such a sweetheart I feel so happy knowing that I can always count on you.

You have been the reasons for so many laughters and smiles I have had.

Thank you akka.

For your nice and big heart you deserve the best.

From caring about a lizard ($#%$&^%&#) to feeling sorry about littering in Singapore.

I almost thought Mother Theresa left her share of her love in you. Lol.

YOU’RE THE BEST SISTER, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

I love love love you AMOI AKKA!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Your one and only lookalike,

Me!!!!

Secret we'll always share....

2010-12-12T22:26:00.003+08:00

The best is yet to come, be it days or months, we know we have the power to visualize. The secret we still share, we'll always share.. Love you.

The truth I wish would never change.
I love you too much much.

And so don't just give me the impression that the best only comes with coincidence, but planned meetings too?
Thank you very much.
I will drop by soon.
Sorry love.
And I hope you're well.
You've got to be.

I'm at my sissy's place now!
Yay! I feel better already.
I am going to see my babylove face and that will instantly bring a smile on mine. :)

And and and its her birthday tomorrow!
I hope she has the best birthday!
She deserves to.
So if anyone wants to wish her surprise her please DO!!
OK OK OK?
:) Her number's not the same anymore, so text me for her current one .LOL.
She's gna kill me for this but ya.

And I am feeling super restless!
I don't have one useful friend asking me out!
LOL. Sorry friends, but ya.
=.=

My leg muscle is torn!!
:(
I missed class.
I can't take the pain.
Salonpas-ed it!

Did I mention how funny my brother is?
REALLY!
He's super funny.

My bro : I need to go temple la later ....
Me : Why? Got pradhosham uh?
My bro : No la, need to go do archanai la for Rajnikanth!

SO ANNOYINGLY FUNNY LA!!

90 MINS TO LOOKALIKE'S BIRTHDAY!!

Freaking zouk out is like a stay home sat for me thanks!

2010-12-11T23:15:00.004+08:00

I miss my Heleysun too much. :)
I saw her last like 1 month back.

Its freaking Saturday night la!
I'm bloody bored.
I was so bored la.
I probably only had a peaceful time at Temple.
So yes, went to Temple with lookalike and Shalu.
And so much for going at 8.30...lol.
We ended up going 1 hour later. So sorry shahlulove, for making you drive down soooo early and making you wait.
Lol.
Oh and templing was nice, after a long time going with lookalike.
And it was calm, but I have issues with that temple priests, they all have some kind of attitude that I can't accept la.
Tsktsk.
But yeh, felt better after the rounds.
We were doing 108 rounds and I think lookalike and Shalu were clueless on the number as I was the one holding on to the counter. Its actually an uneasy feeling when you don't know how many rounds you have done, or have left.

But yes, after that was breakfast for us and then stay home Saturday.
Literally!
SO much for our kite flying la, east coast la, bowling la.
NOTHING happened.
And worst part of it, we had a car that we can travel in plus a bike.
But we chose to bore ourselves by staying home.

And time went too, without stopping.
=.=
Parents left for wedding, and I had a quick nap in between with sister before waking up to the most interesting episode of Dhool.
Wow.
Seriously.
Too good la.
I had to miss it and take a shower while at it.

I've got class tomorrow.
And afterwhich heading home, finishing my work and heading to the West, staying over.
Would like to go to the temple with lookalike on her birthday on Monday.
I hope my Sunday is a tad bit more happening la.
WALANOI,TODAY WAS AMAZINGLY HAPPENING LA.
While every damn young adult is at ZOUKOUT, I am out la, of my house watering plants. =.=

BUT! Seeing dancies tomorrow would give me a great start.
So counting on that.

Oswind's a FI now! YAY!
So happy for him.
He's one great guy who deserves great things.

I think I will be visiting my granny tomorrow as well.
And maybe before that, squeeze time for Tnesh's babyprincess.

I can't wait for my year end post which I do it annually.
It will be fantastic. Where all you people will be mentioned discreetly or openly for everything done to me, for me.
It will be the last day before I have a clean slate. :)

Oh oh and and, I was thinkin about a post on how I would expect a BF to treat me.

Was just thinking about babyboy's growth, first picture was on his actual birthday.

This was like 1 month old.

12 months old! First birthday ! SO CUTE RIGHT?

And like 13 months old. He's become brighter,smarter,naughtier, Lol.
But he's my only dimpleloveeeeeeeeeee.

OKAY, i'm done.
NEEDA SLEEP RIGHT NOW.
Loves and Misses

AMELIA? :( CALL ME.

*Hope you're well love.
To think that we used to.......together.....and....ya.
:)
Take care girl.

I prayed for you too.

Slumber with the lookalike!

2010-12-11T02:15:00.004+08:00

I'll always be there for you lovey.

I'm here at 2.22 am, writing this. Super super restless.
My lookalike's over and we are laughing and catching up with brotherlove.
He's being so funny, seriously, he's one clown and I love that about him.

Gotta go temple early morning tomorrow and then go accompany Sindhu at dance and catch with steps!
I'm gona make the best out of everyday! :)
I am seriously losing mood. Like nothing interests me. Not even any guy. =.= Hahahaha.

I was in the cab today heading to lookalike's friend's crib when I saw Yana slut on her bf bike! Super excited can! I was like YANNAAA! And of course I texted her that. Lol, we intend to meet in 2011! :)
Along with Mike! We better do.

I'm seriously counting on this Shalini for my choco buffet at fullerton. We were supposed to go over and camwhore and have a blast. I'm gona get lookalike, rupz and all too and get down and enjoy all the chocolate! In love with the following songs :

Classic and of course

I would love anyone who comes up to me randomly and sings this almost perfectly! :)

I'm like super restless still. Goodness! I'm like on redbull once or twice a month. Unhealthy much?

Oh well. I'm excited for Jan 20! Weeee Thaipusam.
I miss my Murugan.
Gona see him tomorrow!

Oh and.....I've been attracting some...well...but ya....Lol!

Juen and Amy, Wed 15 Dec! :) We'll go out! :)

Kavilove was the funniest today, he has not been getting back to me at all, and today I get a text, 'All is well'. LOL! He will never change.

I needa catch up with Oswind soon. I miss him much. Ruby's another one. I will I will! :)) I'LL BE BACK WITH MORE UPDATES SOON! WITH PHOTOS TOO!

LOVES AND MISSES :)

My sister is currently complaining that my brother and I arent letting her sleep. Cause he's like playin music and me typing sooooo loud on my keyboard. So I shall end it.

*Thanks once again. Missed.You were.

my 21st photo memories

2010-12-10T04:17:00.007+08:00

Its freaking 4 am, and here I am blogging.
WELL, I don't mind sparing a few mins just to do so.
I'M JUST done with my work.
Like holidays arent really holidays for me, but I shouldn't be complaining la.
I'm still being paid for being home and doing work.

Yep.
So today, was an alright day.
Went to visit my granny again.
She's bad.
But yeah, hoping things go on as usual.
I'm not mentally prepared.
And, erm, well, had a heart to heart talk to a brother of mine.
I realised what's life and how it should be lived by his talk!
Motivational much!?
I love him so much. I always will.
:)
Loveyoubrotherrrrr

Anywayssss, my sister dropped me off at Semb and I was sleeping on her bike la!
She la, jam brake whenever I'm deep in sleep causing me to wake up!
LOL.
The wind was too powerful la. I had to nap here and there.
She bought me milkshake today! :)
YAY! THANK YOU KA!

I kinda wanna upload my 21st pics a lil here.
I just was reminiscing about my days then.

And whoever snapped this photo,thank you so much. You were such a gem. You were.

:) Those dayysss
a

Mum's so pretty uh. Lol.

I actually can pull off the most innocent look !~ lol

The heels I wore that day were killers la! Anyone else who wore that should have felt it.(*I know you did)

:) You guys mean much.

Thats my gangster(see her tatoo on her forearm!) granny on the right who's super unwell.
I don't know if she'll be around for my wedding, but she was with me on stage for atleast my major important function.

Sec sch lovies

I was having a blast. :)

But if there was someone who really helped me from the day, and made me feel ready mentally and made me feel beautiful its this girl.
Thanks much, if you ever read this.
I will never forget all that you did for me. :)Thanks much babe. I remember every help offered and done.

Thanks thanks :)

Love my gown

Oh and come earlier evening, I was basically just fbing and clearing mails and just catching up with tv.
Night passes by too fast la.
I've got a meeting at Orchard Lido tomorrow.
First official meeting with my Co Teacher.
:)
Afterwhich, I wanted to meet BFF, but she's got her friends down from Perth.
I badly miss her la sial.
Oh well.
I need to spend time with her next week.
So tomorrow I'll probably see what I can do, and maybe just head down to lookalike's.

I MISS MY BABYBOY TERRIBLY!! :(

Kavilove is at camp, and he didnt text me at all. :(
So sad!
I hope he calls me soon.

I wanna go see Tnesh's niece soon too.
I wanna do alot of things.
I will do it!
Okay, this is it from me.
Super tired liao.

loves and misses ; SHAHL THE BEST!
I

P/s : I'm trying to let go...I'm still trying....

Birthdays conducted :)))

2010-12-09T02:17:00.003+08:00

Random thought!
I was just thinking about how many birthdays I conducted this year and how many were surprises that were done successfully.
I always have this goal that I should make many surprises I can in all my loved ones' life.

I just feel very satisfied to see that smile or tear that follows the surprise.
It makes me feel very contented. I jusr love organizing parties.

:))))

i remember this birthday i did for this girl in feb.
that was really very memorable.
tsk tsk.
memories.

i'll be back soooooooooooon.

lovessss

Short update once again!

2010-12-08T21:29:00.003+08:00

Somehow I love this photo most.

I'm currently going to use the above collage for the time being. I'm having bad migraines I cant stand it. Today I went over to visit my granny. She's really sick ay....and yep....she was very weak.

Managed to see my Uncle who's like a full force Krishna devotee who came back from India. He was giving me some motivational talk. I used to not like it previously as he wouldn't stop. But he changed so much and could really hold a conversation such that even I was smiling. Happy happy!!

I terribly miss my babyboy. I really wish I could see him now.
Him and his dimple, will def make my day.
I heard he's got diarrhea ...all the eye cast...tsk tsk...

I'm like super restless la.
WAH! How uh?
I miss being at my lookalike's.
I wanna go over soon. Problem is I should not go and sleep over on a Saturday cause SOMEHOW Sunday I won't end up going dance. But last week I told myself to! But I'm not going to risk it. So I'm going to go over after dance this Sunday probably. Next Monday's my lookalike's birthdayyy weeeeeeeeeeee!

Family friends I know of, flew to India for their pilgrimage at the mountain.
I hope that they all reach successfully, and even if they don't they shouldn't attain any injuries. Anyways! Migraine's killing me, I'm gna take a pause! Hit this space in a bit.

Loves loves!

Updates!

2010-12-07T23:34:00.004+08:00

I NEED TO SERIOUSLY CHANGE MY PHOTO

COLLAGE ABOVE! IN THE PROCESS.

I'm feeling damn sleepy.
But no, blogging first and then everything else.
So today was a good day, met up with my colleague at Coffee Club at Taka to do some closing.
Its a pity I ain't working with her no more as I've got a new co-teacher who's just as nice.
But my previous co-teacher was amazingly awesome.
She just amazes me with the way she teaches, and connects with the kids and how she's never going to give up even if the children are.

Oh for some of those who must be wondering what I'm doing.
Well, I'm in the line I always wanted to be, just that its more special - literally.
Teaching in a Special Needs school.
And its challenging much but after a few months, I'm only getting to it from now.
Yes, I've practically been spoon fed too much.
Its a huge leap from where I was and how much I am going to be expected from next year.
And during the closure with my ex co teacher I learned not to give up and just freaking ASKKKKK for help if I need to.

I think many of us think alot before asking for help in alot of situations, sometimes we would even wish they would read our minds and come offering help.
But its never going to work.
I have to consistently tell myself this!
I NEED TO ASK FOR HELP.
My new year resolution is to be focused, determined and hard working.
I've be lazing around too much for real.
BUCK UP SHAHLEENI!!

Oh and afterwhich went over to my dearest friend's place to help him in packing as he's being enlisted this Thursday. I'm gna seriously miss him.
He's like my sunshine these days!

And then met some cuckoo who annoyed me much but entertaining still :) and back home to have my cousins over.

Year's coming to an end.
I'm excited.
I need a clean slate from alot of things.
I need to attend dance class REGULARLY every SUNDAY!
I want to do that! That's like very important to me.

I am kinda interested in enrolling into some course late next year.
If all goes well I guess I will do it too.
And I wanna get a car 4 years from now.
I need to save up.
Oh yes, before that I need to FRESHEN up on my driving I KNOW I KNOW!

Well lucky for me, my look alike sis has a friend who's a bbdc instructor who offered to give me free refreshment course!
LUCKY ME! :)

I had an awesome night last Friday.
With my sisters.
Lol.
Rupini, it was really fun regardless of all the funny moments la!
I really am glad to have it out with you!
You're one amazing babe la.
If there's something I know about you, is the fact that you're very hardworking.
Seriously, keep it going Rupz you are going to excel at your studies and that attitude will help you excel at work too.

I'm thinking of boyfriends lately.
Seriously, once your 21 it'll just either strike you in thoughts or in action.
As for myself.....I don't have much to say except ....giving myself atleast 4 years to let the right one find me.
I'm not going to look for trouble no more man.

Now that I'm active on my blog, I might wanna close my fb a while.
I don't need so many channels of communication with people.

I need to start with my templing and librarying soon.
My aim from 10 Dec is to Temple as often as I can, and borrow many books regarding down syndrome and all to atleast educate myself.
I need to do this.
I wanna go to all the temples in Singapore and leave not one unturned!
I will achieve this myself!

And and and, I need to seriously spend time with Amelia before she goes and I feel lonely.
She's like my best.
And like no matter how sick people maybe to hear me talk about the same thing she won't?
But I don't get obessessed and talk about 1 thing always la.
I'm just saying.

To me a friend must be a good listener and a good sharer.
A balance.
But there was someone who once told me, 'Shahl you're one best listener I've came across, you listen intently and you never felt as if your problems are bigger than mine. You make me feel as if you right there with me through it and I think that's why most of us unload of excess baggage with you.'
Sweet much! Lol.

I don't really open up much to people.
Cause I hate it when I try and tell you something, you cut me and talk about your own shit.
That I can't stand.
Cause if I open up to you its because I know you're one awesome person in my life who knows I need all the attention for that moment.
You know you're one of them right Sindhu? :) Thanks much love. You who were there from the start never left.

Speaking of Sindhu. We have a new year resolution in going out as a class next year!
YES ITS SO TOUGH it has to be a resolution.
But Sindhu and Thrina you guys need to chill out with me soon. :)
And then we'll discuss more about my special taste buds . Lol.

:)

So yes!
Enough about me!
I'm actually quite interested in Mera Naam Jokers in clinching the DHOOL title.
I think they deserve it most at the current juncture, if along the way it changes I shall blog about it.

I attended a funeral recently.
A suicidal.
Her face is in my head still.
It will be.
Cause she was my brother's bestfriend (in sec and poly days) sister.
She was an Angel and I envied her from the age of 14.
And I did all I can.
I am glad I did.

Love,
Me :)

Its a blast hence!

2010-12-06T23:15:00.011+08:00

I love this picture too!

I went to GENTINGS, and this is my star who made my holiday.

Baskin Robbins babyyyy

SERIOUSLY WHAT IS MORE CUTER THAN HIM?
WHO IS? Ohmygod. I cant help but fall in love with him over and over again.
iloveyoubabyboy

kenny rogers at gentings

brother love

Seriously speaking, no one but him can bring me so much of joy.
Don't you feel like pinching his cheeks looking at this photo?
He's my babydimplelove.

i reckon we still look alikeeee

Thats about all for my Genting's trip!!
So coming back!!!

I'm back at my space. FOR REAL!
I really need to get back to this hobby of mine.
I've let it off for like 1 year and its time to get it all spiced up!!
And I've not changed one bit in my style of writing.

So here goes, my 2010 was practically an EVENTFUL YEAR!
Seriously, I don't think its possible to forget how horribly great this year was.
I really went through too much of shit.

But I am so glad I did.
I really am.
Like its so nice this way.

I had the most bombastic birthday celebrations where I REALISED what people/loved ones will do for me.
Especially my dearest brother love, my look alike sister and from my friends my dance lovies and Tnesh of course.
Like learning lessons was what I had through this year.
Some good ones, some bad ones, some horrible ones.

But time and time again, I failed to see the people running behind me wailing to my attention.
I'm sorry to all of you all.

My bitch is back and even if she's gone we'd rock the world!

my homies!

And my best moments in my life were captured : Below

Superstar on my birthday!

Mybabylovedimplelove

AMELIA DIANE DASS WE'LL ROCK THE REMAINING DAYS.
From this Wednesday! love you bitch!

Kavilove, thanks for making a come back, the conversation we had that night on FB was one of the best night in my life.

Family, Dance lovies, Friends , God and myself.
This is it to my life.

Loves and Misses, the proud author of stickyjellybeans! :))))

And to everything and everyone else, wait up, for you know, your day is coming.

backo

2010-10-06T09:24:00.002+08:00

I'm coming back ALIVE at this space HENCE!

I missed it all!!!!!

A little something

2010-09-06T12:00:00.004+08:00

When you don't behave your age and you think you're growing too fast thats when the problem starts.

Attitude is alright if its attitude with style, attitude with no relevance to age is a loud cry for attention.

So come on now, you can do better, time waits for no man, but we all can wait to grow up.
How is it possible that you live in this bubble of your own where you think you're so right with that age barely hitting mature-ness?For the mouth you have, has and will eventually dig your own grave.

When you need to depend on people's quotes to express I come up with mine.
Don't even take my lead its going to be tough you're not apt enough.
It's like telling yourself finally i SEE LIGHT - BUT -OHWAIT!!
Its just a car with its high beams crashing me down.
Nevermind the dumbness at its peak yours come with rudeness too. And everything else you don't deserve you shan't get.
Happy servicing - ohbutWAIT did you even know you're beyond repair?

Lovelovelove :)))))

Come back or whattttt

2010-06-03T20:32:00.006+08:00

And who would have thought I'd be back on this space just so soon.
Blame the holidays.
Speaking of which, my holidays are too long now.

Been occupying myself with relief teaching here and there.
Sometimes they call me on a day I can't seem to even open my eyes and sometimes they don't call me on a day I can't seem to do anything but be wide awake waiting for their call.

But seriously!!!
HOW HAVE YOU GUYS BEEN!?! :)
It feels nice to come knowing that I'd have some of my friends still read this.
Well I thought I'd just come back and give a solid update and them come back again after 78947592 years.
Lol. Well not really but yeah.

Has my writing changed since?
I doubt ay!
But I have changed since I stopped blogging a while.
And sometimes as much as we all hate changes we either fall victim to it or we'd get to witness it happening to else.

So biggest achievement on my list : GRADUATED BABYY.
And I really am happy like I always pictured my graduation to be a sweet one to look back at smile at.
And seriously people who came there for me besides my parents(Who were more than ecstatic as they couldnt be there for Bro's) I'm so thankful and appreciative of you all.

I actually miss my FYP days, more like Yana and Mike they have made such an impact in my life its sad thinking I won't get to work with them or laugh like crazy at each other's speaking deficiencies any more.

Secondly I'm glad I'm developing in my art.
Like sometimes you would come to a point you know you're definitely doing alot more than you used to.
It doesnt really matter if others notice it but you know you did? So yes I know I did.
Cause I knew I would invite my friends to watch me only when I knew I could perform well.
And so I actually invited a couple of them to watch me.
BUT, well, sadly Bestfriend TNESH hasn't came.
And I'm actually sad that he didnt. But yeh....who knows.

Apart from that Oswind came, Viknesh came, Ragu(TWIN!!!) came and a few others did too.
Ashwini did! :)))))) And I am thankful for all of that.
Like Oswind came and not only watched but became the source of distraction for another dance mate of mine! Lol.

Things at home are like things at home ; crazy as hell.
Brother's MIA most of the times, work's such.
And if ya'll wanna see my brother at work drop by MAKANSTURA !! :)
No, not having a roti-prata shop(Thought my mum would be keen to have one) but managing them all.

And as for me,The month June's a dread.
SERIOUSLY.
Now I think Primary and Secondary schools shouldnt pamper students with holidays la!
I mean come on already!!!
Study laaaaa, so that I can relief teach and earn. :(
And secondly my big 2-1 is coming up and all I seriously wish for would be to erm...say, eventful?
Like even if it means going to the temple.
I want it to be eventful in the most positive way.
:) I want God to bless me such.

And when it comes to all other things in my life.
I'm glad I'm eliminating things that can never bring back the same good they once did.
Like as much every object has its reason for serving you, every human put in our lives have a reason too.
Some to guide us.
Some to teach us.
Some to lie to us.
Some to cheat us.
Some to hurt us.
Some to make us laugh.
Some to have our backs.
Some to make us cry.
And some, just come to love us despite it all.

So there you go, you were right.
Every human is in our lives for a period or more/less but still they were.
And they may never be where they were cause of incidents.
But heres to you.
I'm never looking back on that page of ours.
NEVER EVER.
And my that wasnt just a page, a book almost, but see even a book has chapters, and some chapters are meant just for memories where it REQUIRES NO REVISION BUT JUST PERMANENCE at place.
But you know that day, that very day where the reason of you being in this position right now might also become just another page of your book, even then you won't be able to find our page.

So thank God for everything.
Like shit happens,and I know it does.
And to have family and friends who will always have your back is what that matters.

Like my bestfriend once asked me, 'Don't you feel annoyed Shahl seeing a friend of yours being close to another friend of yours after your introducing and then they forget you almost?', I laughed then.
Cause I knew perfectly what he meant but what I also knew was gone should be the days getting even affected by such people who can simply bounce of their path just cause another seemed more fun. Cause seriously, whats their worth?

Okay so right now. I AM MISSING AMELIA SO BADLY.
Sometimes I wish she was right next to me cause I'd just have to annoy her and that would make my day.
So my BFF you better be doing great there.

I had the sweetest letter penned to me some time back.
And I think it deserves to be here.
Not saying who but sweetest ever alright!

Valentine's day is not only for lovers. To me Valentine's day is for all
those who has been there for you through thick and thin, who is able to tolerate all your nonsense without complaining at all.
All those who knows who you truly are and who you totally know that you can count on at times of sorrows and difficulties.
To me love, you are one of the very few ones. & I am so glad we have come this far.

Love, we have known each other for like a over * years now?
But yea, I am glad we met! Truly glad. If not for you, I wouldn't have known how strong and beautiful the Indian religion is.
If not for you, I wouldnt know what great surprises are! (*th bday party! omg! )
If not for you, I wouldnt have known great people like * and *.
If not for you, I wouldnt have found *! (:
AWWWWWW right?
But the only think I regret knowing from you is the other thousand * friends you have.
YOU KNOW, I KNOW CAN ALREADY!

So, today love. I dedicate this day for you. For being there for me. Without complaining.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, YOU HAVE NO IDEA.'

Not jinxing the 3 letters love.
You know, I know, can already.

So yep, pretty much NOT contented with life.
Lol, cause I never hated JUNE holidays till this year.
I wanna work!

And, erm, did I mention how AWESOME SINGAM, SURYA'S LATEST movie was?
GOODNESS.
Like take that VIJAY! Cause thats one actor you gotta take leads from.
I AM LOVING SURYAAA.
:)))))

I feel as if this week's alot better than the last in terms of weather.
Sun's cooling down atleast a tad bit.
Then I realised that even this aspect of heat is something Hinduism has covered.
All these while till last Friday I think, Agni Natchatiram(Fire star) was ruling.
So thats the hottest period of MAY.
And since then I was trying to see how accurate it was but I really feel as if it did become less hotter.
And so I fell ill, and dear bestfriend bought me cookies and lemon tea and came right up to my flat. Well not literally, but yeh he drove to see me and surprise me with cookies which I didnt ask for. :)
Love youuuuu.

Ashwini love, you better start counting your days.
O levels is not some Hindi movie named kites or as easy as window shopping at fareast/bugis all.
START BUCKING UP ALREADY.
=.=

And I end my post here with all thanks to God for allowing me to be a Hindu. :)

p/s : You've forgotten how it has been like. And its sad.

Godspeed and My Love.

The end.

2009-12-02T10:19:00.003+08:00

I AM DONE.
I AM OFFICIALLY CLOSING MY BLOG.
SO SO SO DONE.

:)

Or maybe, I'll just come back but not for the next few years!!

I am done blogging. :)

THANKS FOR READING ALL THESE WHILE YA'LL.

GODSPEED AND MY LOVE.

Overdue picturessss

2009-11-27T23:52:00.006+08:00

So yes, the father of my favourit nephew said, 'Take photo when I DOING work can?'

Just started with decorations. It was so fun doing this with them. I felt so happyyy cause we always have so much of fun.I was cutting the necessary alphabets for the wordings.

So the theme was, 'A star's born', cool or what. Laren my dimplestar!

And since, his name has some relation to Lord Krishna, we used peacock feathers as part of the deco, and fused it with toys/stars, cool or what! :)

Awwwwww, look at him! :)

Not without some cam-whoring on that day! We sisters went for the white colour code! :)

TWIN!

We felt as if it wasnt a good-day-for-photos thou....

This is my life. Period.

Sisters/sister in laws! :)

:) i love him so much.

She who never fails to be there.

My everything.

See my cousins say, I look like a small girl here, and then I got happy, and they changed it to dwarf and I was like ,@#%$#$%. Lol, but I hate my left side of my face, the crease is uglyyyyy.

:) The mother !

My first nephew!

Tintin and Seanpaul. Lol, they are so cute, these two brothers will coincidentally have the same hairstyle.

My first niece : Leisha! :)

Along with Rupini. :)

So yes, celebrations went well, it was a fun time for me. I loved it till the very end, cousins made plans to head down to Boat Quay and I was ecstatic.I even bumped into a rather high Elan who shouted, 'SHAHLEENI' , I turn to see a familiar face and he shouts, 'What you doing here!!?',I am like, 'Omg can you relax!' and he laughs.
And my cousins are all like, 'Wah you just stepped into Boat Quay and someone calls for you uh...who's that!!!' Hahaha.

Then we proceeded to Jeans first to see Rajan and the other guys and then got pissed at the crowd, tsk tsk, and then left for the Rock where it was just meant for us. It was super fun till I had some hard time....but yeh, nevertheless! :) Photos before...

I look really happy uh! Lol

He is the coolest,hottest,fittest policeman I know in my life! Seriously, he's like Singapore's top Runner and what not!! I love him!

Sis and Chu-chu

Loves loves.

After he had a quick wipe!

My Dimplestar always! :)

One thing I realised, its my family that matters to me the most.
They who realised my smile hasnt been the same, they who realised that I am not myself, they are my everything.
I've been blessed by my wonderful family, sisters,brothers, uncles and aunties.
And, God gave me my share of girlfriends whom I love with all my heart.
And lastly, some special ones in my life, I intend to keep throughout.

And you know what, you should think again, as to who disappointed who. I hear things too.But since you are never gona open up, neither am I.
I've got enough memories to last me my dearest friend.
THIS IS IT. I'M DONE. REALLY.

Cousins loveeee

2009-11-26T12:32:00.008+08:00

I've been having alot of fun lately.
From the day I met my cousins to head down to Little India till today.
I'm embracing it all.

So the letter of my absence from school was finally mailed in, and times like this I wanna thank my brother for not helping me by keeping it.
So yesterday,when I returned home at like 10ish, I was called by my dad once I washed my legs upon returning home.
And he asked me why I didnt go school for 4 days bla bla bla, and I said some excuse which he accepted but he warned me that if he's gona get another letter, I'm gona get it.
I think he might just, but I'm gona hide it myself this time!
So naughty right, but no more no more!! I'm not gona skip anymore.

So the other day, when I met my cousins we first went to have an early dinner at Little India.
I swear it was damn funny, its always funny for my cousins and I la.
They just make me laugh always.
SO yes, there was this uncle who was taking our orders, and I said, 'Menu please.' And he returns with one, and I ask him something and he nods his head, and I ask him again he continues nodding, and like I got so pissed, 'Wah! He fasting or what!'
So annoying,then we were looking at the menu and he suddenly says, 'Thosai on off'.
And I couldnt take it, I burst out laughing, he'll personify the thosai as if it has life and claims it went on leave as in on off and ya, what do you expect, my sisters and I LAUGHED so hard at it.

Goodness!!
Then we made our way to Mustafa where I shopped.
I bought Fair & Lovely cause I'm damn sad with people telling me I've became darker.
I try and avoid the sun don't I ? I do right ? Lol.
But ya, I told my cousins and they're like, 'how much fairer you wanna be now?You have your glow still okay.' -AWWW moments.

Then after sometime, my lookalike sis joined us and we went for more luggage hunting while my brother and my Seanpaul cousin headed to my place to deliver dinner for my dad.
So yes, this is when I witness another funny incident.
See the salesmen mostly are from India, so sometimes they talk funny?
Like when you direct translate what they say in Tamil into English its effing funny?
So yes!
I was asking the guy for this pink luggage that was there 1 hour ago and now it wasn't anymore?
And he said in Tamil, 'பொய்த்து' , wrong spelling la members, but ya he said 'Poithu', and I'm like, 'எங்கே விடுக்கா?'
So ya non-Tamil readers, the guy said, 'It went',referring to the luggage and I said, 'Went where uncle?Home ah?' and he laughed.
And then afterwhich, he was helping us compare 2 luggage, and he wanted to say one has a longer lifespan with warranty, and he said 'This luggage got life' ,and I swear times like this I love my lookalike sis so much, cause we both reacted instantly putting our ears to the luggage to check for heartbeat, and the guy got so mad at us, 'I'm leaving, I am going home la!'
LOL!!!

But so yes, after that we cruised back to my hometown, Jurong West!!
Yes I feel so home there, and then we lepaked at Teh Tarik's from like 12 till 3ish am.
Then headed home, not after being annoyed by .... tsktsk.

So yes, after waking up we went to check for luggage at Watsons/Guardians, my awesome cousins have some unspoken love for these two retail shops.
Whenever they speak about luggage, Watsons and Guardian has to be mentioned.

So yes, come yesterday,I had a wonderful time yesterday.
I seriously did.
Though it started off with me making people wait for me, I rarely do that know!
But ya, Sindhu will think I ran away from home, and try contacting my sister to ask where I was and all .Lol.
And some good time was spent.
Beaches,Uno,Bus Rides(babuba) and Lepaks involving singing sessions. :))))))
Updates with photos soon!

Anyways, remember how I had like my AWESOME-DIMPLESTAR'S one month celebrations 3 weeks ago which had many photos taken!?
MY SIS IS TAKING 10000 YEARS TO UPLOAD THEM.
I really wanna put them up here,cause they are that nice!
And best part, Ravi,Samsu and Deeban came over for the celebration,which made it more fun for me! I remember spending my entire dinner time talking to Deeban.

Plans for tomorrow : Meet up with entire family for shopping for India Trip. So that means, meeting up with cousins again : YAY ('Yeah!')
Plans for Sat : Usual Templing and then off for Dance and then off to cousins for a partying night at Boat Quay! :)
Plans for Sun : Dance in the morning,which means, I can't be sleeping after all the partying and then proceed for dance like a Zombie. And then return home and sleeeppppp.

I'm out!!!

I'm loved!

2009-11-25T00:20:00.003+08:00

So long I'm having someone there to make me smile and laugh I know I am loved.
Especially by you.

I'M APPRECIATING EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING AROUND ME.

monday bluessssssss -argh

2009-11-23T10:40:00.004+08:00

And if my cupids don't get it then who will? Lol.

I am bored in class right now.

I kinda think Marketing lessons should be done just by notes.
I honestly don't see a need of presenting in class.
But I love Marketing tests.Cause I get to write alot, and I love writing.

SO anyways, I think I haven said much about Ms.Lovey getting married!!
She's so beautiful, I need to put up atleast 1/2 photos! So see them!

Aww....her smile makes my day.

So happy for you!! REALLY truly ! My heartiest regards to You and Andrewww! :)

So yes, anyways, and suddenly I'm bored still and I need to meet my cousins soon.
I miss them lor. I'm having alot on my mind, and I'm thankful, really for all those who've been a help to me in some way or another. Once bitten twice shy.

I sure do! :)

Ashwini!! Don't be sad about your phone and nailpolish k.
You'll get it back! You better .Love you !

Just so you know bestfriend, not a word from you about my life. - Why?

Epitome of Adorable

2009-11-20T13:12:00.005+08:00

Epitome of adorable!!!!!
cannot take it, I think I must have kissed him 10101010 times aredi.
goodness!! spot his dimple? Its actually very defined when he smiles wide.

I love you boiboi!!! :)

Someday, when you grow up, I'll show you my blog!
hahaha.

My handsomehamster .

:)
So anyways, Happy belated birthday once again Sindhu, I hope you had a great time yesterday. Atleast I saw your face for a few mins and you got my birthday kiss!!! Hahahaha.
See you Sundayyyyy!! :)

I didnt go to school yesterday, I was far too tiredddd.
And I wanted to sleep in cause I've been having difficulty sleeping in these days, my body automatically wakes up by 8 and so I had a good sleep till 12.
I am just hoping that if my school sends me a letter my bro will keep it for me.
tsktsk.

Did I mention how I hate NS?
Yes, I DO.
I like how things just have to change once your guy friends or which ever guy your related to goes for NS.
You just magically drift apart.
Or things happen and people get crazier.
Both the parties inside/outside.
Or if you don't drift they become really angry people. But I GET it, and so I hate NS.
I am so so annoyed.
So not that the distance between us can get wider the line's becoming blurry, and if you don't want to salvage it like how I want to then I guess the line's gona disappear.
And when that happens, I'll still be there, but never any clearer.

And, sometimes I wonder if the tolerance in me can get any higher.
Its sad, but I find myself always doing things I thought I didnt want to.
:(
I'm always there.
Thats the trouble.
And one day what if I am not there anymore?
What if I become self centered, what if I'm never really there anymore?
Would it matter?

Anywayssss.... that aside.
Saturday I've got an arrangetram to attend and meeting some of the lovies in the noon.
Sunday Dance and then some Deepavali show at Bukit Batok. (OMG I KNOW DEEPAVALI STILL!!?) So yes thats how my weekend gona go.

Next weekend is gona be the best weekend for my cousins and I.
I'm looking forward to it.
On 27 Nov, we're heading to Lil India, getting our necessary items for India trip and then slacking and chilling, and 28 Nov its real partying for my cousins, cause my Eldest sis is done with her exams. That means we're gona PARTY LIKE ROCKSTARS.
Whichever quay, Clark/Boat I'm there. :)

MY COUSINS complete my life.
My eldest sis and her husband.
My lookalike sis and her brother.
These 4 people are my everything.

I'm gona be bunking in with my Soulmate during the weekdays when my entire family is in India. I AM EXCITED. About 5 nights with Soulmate sounds FUN no? YES!!

And then I'll move over to lookalike sis's house during the final weekend we have and then I'll fly to India with her !! Yay.
Its her virgin flight so hahaha, I bet its gona be fun with her around.

And I guess thats all for now.

Ashwini love, I heard about, 'Ashwini Productions' , so cute la you.
Aiyoooooo.
See you soon k? :) We'll have a girls day out, no need for awkward moments already right? Hahaha.

Godspeed and my Love!!!

I am losing it but its getting stronger.
I don't know how that makes sense, but I'm giving my best and I'm hoping its enough.
So tell me.... that this'll last.

Paruthi's house prayer

2009-11-16T10:49:00.010+08:00

My bro mentioned seeing this majestic photo of Lord Shiva months ago and I saw him trying so hard finding for it. And then randomly, after months he came across this photo.
And when I saw it, I was speechless.
Something about his face,his body language.
Like as if he rules all. :)
I saw how many people commented on my bro's fb when they saw it. By far, the best ever.

So yes! Coming back.
I feel happy.
This really awesome feeling.
I can't describe.
:)

Oh so yesterday was a tiring day for me!!
Woke up at 7 to get ready for usual dance class and then after class , Sindhu and I went over for some prayer at one of the Bhajan guys house, Paruthi/Samsu's house actually.
It was damn nice la!

Like from the ground floor we could hear the tavil sound and all.
I was excited la.
I love that bhajan group la seriously.
So yes!!

We went up and it was packed even in the outside, so we used this chance to stand outside, cause I predicted many getting trance.
And saw all the familiar ones, Ashwini first and foremost! Lol. (I love this babe! :) )
Murali,Deeban,Vinoth,Dino,Ravi! Hahaha.
Ravi's the funniest guy I've met la.

And so! We stood outside while the bhajan guys continued.
And then I realised my AWESOME cousins(brothers/sister) didnt come when we planned to meet at the house itself.
OMG la?
I tried calling my awesome lookalike sis 50000 times but she didnt answer.
So Sindhu and I were being forced to enter the house but we didnt la.
But the guys sang damn well as usual, and the Altar!
The make shift one for that day, was amazingly beautiful.
Like the Goddess sat in between the Elephant and the Monkey god.
And the Monkey God was omg beautiful la!
Seriously.
The goddess was beautified too.
Tsktsk.

And then the music got faster, vibrations higher, and before we know it, Paruthi's dad got the trance, and it was scary la, Sindhu was like holding me so tightly it hurt!
And beside him, Vinoth's dad got it.
And I like seeing that uncle get cause, he starts speaking in Sanskrit!
Seriously.
And he was fiercer than I've seen before, yesterday.
But it was nice.

And then came Paruthi/Samsu, as much as I've heard about him getting Anjanayar(Monkey-god)'s trance I was silently fearing yet anticipating it kinda?All I know was my cousins all havent seen it and they would love to have seen it cause they're always talking about it.
SO yeh,coming back.
All I remember seeing was his dad blessing him, and then suddenly his body vibrated so much and he was like transfixed on something and I remember him,just, I don't know how to describe it, but he jumped into the prayer room from the hall.
I was happy la, cause I was standing outside the house, and I didn't wanna see him in action cause I was scared..

While some other uncles got it and my oh my was it fierce, and I remember alot of people were going into the altar room to get blessings from the Anjanayar(Who was residing in Paruthi's body) and they all came out with big smiles and I was thinking why.
I think he had the trance for damn long, cause after about 45 mins he jumped into the hall and he came to play with the bhajan guys and whoever was around in the hall.

And that moment, I swear was the cutest of all.
Like seriously, I only had the back view and side view most of times cause, Sindhu and I were looking through the window panels and it was sucha nice sight.

Like I heard about how people who get monkey god trance usually behaves exactly like a monkey, very playful and all, and he was so cute la.
Wahhhh!
Like the bhajan guys were singing a Anjanayar song just so he knows they are singing praises of him and he would get so happy and throw flowers at them all, and people continued coming to him for blessing, as he rubbed the holy ash on their forehead he would present them with a banana.
And that was the best part.
Like his friend Ravi, whom he obviously didn't know was his friend at that stage was being bullied by him.
So he would hand Ravi a fruit and before Ravi could take it he would throw it at him.
Then we all laughed, and then he handed some grape fruits to the girl next to him(who was his own sister kinda) and gave one to Ravi, and before Ravi could take it, he snatched it.
DAMN CUTE.
And then when I felt as if he was going to turn to face us I would glide down, didnt wanna be called in la.
But Sindhu will stand there bravely, and since she knows him personally she didnt mind going in, but she didnt until there was this part he turned and signalled us in.
And I disappeared within the fraction of second when I realised he was turning his neck to us, and how he knew there were people behind him-Thanks to Ravi who pointed to the back.

But seriously, it was almost like seeing a real monkey there, and for us Hindus its a blessed thing when someone comes down with a Monkeygod trance so it was nice.
So while I was forced by so many people to go in, I didnt.
And Sindhu went la!
SHOCK!
Lol.

So she went, and he apparently gave her the cheeky stare, rubbed some ash on her forehead and gave her vadai.
For us Hindus, monkey god's main items are bananas and vadais.
So yeh! And Sindhu like really liked it(As in seeing him in trance), cause she came out with a smile.

Then apparently, Vinoth was singing too loudly that the Anjanayar didnt like it, so he stared at him just pulled the mike away from his mouth.
Lol, damn cute laaaaaa.
And all these while he was behaving exactly like a Monkey, I swear it was sucha cute sight seeing him swallow like 23456789 bananas, but I didnt go in till the end and I'll get scolded for that later la.....-.-...but yeh !
Hahahaha.
I entered in when everyone left, as in all those who had the trance left, and we settled for the last 4/5 songs and it was a good session clapping along singing!
While Sindhu got her favourite song being sung, I was just enjoying my time there.

Love the altar so much.
Seriously.
The Anjanayar statue was damn nice.
Never seen a smiling one like him before.

And this the Elephant God :

The Goddess was beautiful :)

So pretty!

And then we had some time to chill before everyone left and so Sindhu headed home and I headed to my Eldest sis's place for a meeting!
My family is the bestest I can get, seriously, the things we'll have gatherings or meetings for can be for something random or something highly important, and that day it was highly important.
We're all going to India in December and so issues such as security,cheaters,financial were all discussed about.
And it was so funny, cause it was a meeting involving everyone, like from our parents, to uncles,aunties and to us cousins raising our point or views/concerns and having them answered by my dad,bro and brother in law.
My Seanpaul cousin's son came ! My favourite nephew, I love that one alot la.
Like omg la, he has dimples la, any my loved ones all know how envious I get of people having dimples.
My future boyfriend has to have to!
Lol.

Afterwhich we had dinner, and I couldnt wait to go home cause I felt so tired la.
Like waking up for 7 for dance and then going for prayer and then going to the west of Singapore for a gathering tired me okay!
And then back home in a cab = bliss.
And some people will fall asleep and I couldnt talk to them.

So thats how my weekend went. :)

See
Tsktsk.
What a day!!

So here I am continuing the post only on Wednesday when its supposed to be up 2 days ago.
But yeh!
Its Sindhu's birthday tomorrow and she's finally turning 18.

Sammy, I hope Melbourne was great!!
:)
Check your email soon.
Love you.

Amybro, I miss you bro,you're never online these days!! -.-
Call me can?

And lastly, Tneshlove, you'll get it back.
You have to.
Attract it back to you.
Love you so much.

SOULMATE'S MEETING ME LATER!!!! :) YAY.

Godspeed and my love.

God-sent you.
Irreplaceable.

Taxi drivers make my day always!

2009-11-14T19:00:00.004+08:00

Taxi drivers and I always have had good rapport.
And Amy should know that right bro?
But seriously, they just click with me instantly. Like we'll talk as if we know each other well. And most of the time the taxi drivers always give me a good message or something to go home with.

Like how one gave me the prediction of the 4d number and it CAME TRUE.
And so yesterday, it was pouring, and right after school I couldnt wait to head home. Decided to cab, and got into this 7 seater cab. Yeh, the red one. And it was an Indian uncle.
He was educated, I could tell. Very much infact, but I didnt ask why he was driving.

So he started a conversation, 'Not a believer of umbrella are you?', and I chuckled and said, 'Never uncle!' and he laughs.
'I remember those time where I flagged my arm for a cab and ended up having cane marks on my arm.Father never thought cabs were necessary.' And I laughed again. And he continued, 'And now, you people are so lucky, your time is so relaxed, my daughter suka-suka hails for a cab ...', and I agreed.

'So what do you do?' and I told him I'm in my last sem and he asks me how was lesson and I said it was boring but interesting.
And he said, 'Boring due to lessons I bet, and interesting due to friends?' and I was like, 'YEH!'
So he continues to ask me what I would wanna do and all, and I said I have thoughts of teaching and he said, 'Please let this uncle know if you become one cause I wouldnt send my future kids there.'
Hahahaha! BASKET!

So yes, we started talking more and he told me,'Let me tell you something, in life you need to remember this rule.
Rule number 1, whatever you do or pursue remember to be happy with it.' And I nodded my head and and focused all attention to him, its like how you're supposed to hear this regardless of whom you hear it from moments?
So I looked and said, 'yes uncle...' and he said ,'And rule number 2, remember rule number 1.' Classic, and I laughed.

But yes, I thought of all my decisions so far, most of them were made by my parents, siblings, and some mine and though not all gave me happiness, currently I'm happy. Way happy.
I'm appreciative of everyone God has sent me. :)
From my amazing family, cousins,bestfriends,special gems like Ms.Lovey & ..... I can never replace. :)

So yes! I watched paranormal activity today, and its scary la!!
So its a real thing uh? Like they found the video camera with the videos intact and made it a movie? GOODNESS.
I swear I hated the part she got dragged out of....and I was holding on tightly...omg!!!
Gaga warned me not to watch.
tsk tsk but I am hoping it doesnt affect my sleeping tonight.

I'm off for another family gathering, for deepavali(DEEEEEEPAVALI no more Sindhu?), yes yes, my family believe deepavali goes on as long as you feel like it. Hahahaha! :)

To my cute chindian love.
I heard world war 3 is over. And you got your phone back.
Hahaa, text me okay? I miss you, and I'll be seeing you soon!!

Godspeed and my love.

Jessica's body

2009-11-10T23:32:00.007+08:00

So today was a great day as well as a tiring day and a bad day.
So to conclude, it was an unforgettable day.

But seriously!!
I had fun at first and then serious headache.
So fun cause, I hung out with *,*,* & * .
I'm only blanking the names for fun. Lol!

But like...things I did today..
Arcade,AMK hub,Grassroots at YCK, NYP,Arcade again(OMG OMG)and finally to Causeway for Jennifer's Body and then hardcore coding at home.

And I'm tiredddddddddd nowwwwwwwwwwww.
But seriously!!It was a breather for me, and, I got to meet this Chindian girl who's super damn cute and she's a nice polite one and she loves watching Korean drama which means Sindhu met her match!

But yes, Jennifer's body, or more like 'Jessica's body' was the bomb.
The moments were all so perfect. Right 'Jessica' ?
As much as we are not arcade people, having friends like * & * makes arcade fun! Especially the punching game !!! Hahahahha. Now we'll wait for the next one.

ANd till then, I am gona do my best for coding. I am so worried. :(
Sometimes I wish we could all teleport anytime anywhere.
Then I would just teleport myself to Mike's house or more like Yana's house whenever I got a stupid silly error in my coding!
But Yana, will probably not like that, cause Mike and I will practically live with her if we could!
Lol, but honestly, I doubt I've ever seen a girl like her.
Being a Muslim, and being very studious and so brainy with so much of morals intact, I think she's one of a kind.
And I'm very sure you'll do well wherever you are, even if it means working after diploma I think you'll excel!
AND I MISS MY YANASLUT'S face now surprisingly. Brownies as promised soon!!

I HAD THE BEST TIME WITH MY COUSINS ON SAT NIGHT.
Went to this club and it was ohsofun! :)
Though we went damn late, it was still an enjoyable time for me.
Only sad thing was my bro and my eldest sis and her husband didn't join us but we'll still have our hanging out time soon I hope!

ATTACHMENT'S gona be over for Soulmate - so YAY! :)
I miss you alot friend.

And and and!!
On a random note, yesterday couldn't have got better!!
'When what you wish for comes true....' and 'When its more than what meets the eye...' :)

Godspeed and my love.

long after updates

2009-11-04T14:00:00.008+08:00

Overdue pics!

Deepavali was so so dead this year,maybe because I have bigger events lined up.
But neverthless, places visted was Granny's, Uncle's,Cousin's and Gaga's.
Photos at Gaga's will take another 1000 years.
But the real phototaking was held at cousin's.
Cause he lives in an amazing penthouse.
And because the house is customised with the red/black theme and its beautiful.
AND! HIGHEST FLOOR LEH, of course right,penthouse, but ya, the view from the 18th floor is beautiful.

So yeh, photos from Granny's first!
Sindhu, dont get jealous, I played sparklers without you.
So much for S planning our sparklers night out. -.-

My eldest sis! :) The cousin who never fails to guide me.

Look-alike!! We do look similar here too uh? Hahaha.

Us sisters and one of my cousin's wife and my first niece and nephew.

:)

I love this shot.

My timer granny! Check out the tatoo on her forearm!
Lol.

So then came the awaited gathering at cousin's at Yewtee.

Picturess.
I love their balcony, the view is awesome.

With all my heart. :)
Seanpaulcousin!

Siblings!! They really are. Like omg they are! Hahaha.

:) I don't look so alike to her here do I?

Love my highlights.

I'm more convincing than my sis la.

And they are my everything.

Coincidentally all went for a new hair look.
I highlighted, my lookalike sis rebonded, and my eldest sis rebonded+ cut. Lol.

Hahahaha.
While waiting for the rest of the family to arrive.

Aww. :)

I swear her suit's omg beautiful la. Love it so much, and the price was a bomb too!
Which I used to blackmail my sister with, if she doesnt bring me out, my brother in law would be be informed of the price too. Lol.

Us sisters and the Host(my cousin's wife).
Awesome colour combination.

So so pretty.

Awww la, they were really looking into each others' eyes.

This is the bomb! Hahaha. They can act so well.

This the lepakkk shot. According to Yanaslut.Lol.
But yeh, I love this picture. I love how each step of the stairs has a mirror.
So pretty.

They speak true love. :)

The one who guides me, astrologically and spiritually.

The fun I have with them is unspeakable.

Lovelovelove this brother of mine. And its his son, my latest nephew.

See this picture speaks professionalism of me!
I took it just as when the lightning struck.
Explains the cool skies? And the pout that goes unmissed! Hahaha.

Love the lights.

And that was how my night ended. And I left early as I had dance the next day.
But then I might as well not have gone as my teacher wasnt around.
But it was so fun talking to the girls in class.

I'll come back soon with more details.

FYP has started and its toiling up for all of us.
But Yana and Mike seriously are the bomb.
I was asking Mike what he was doing , and he said, 'Im helping download my friend.' (When what he meant was helping his friend download a file.)

AND I BURST INTO LAUGHS , 'How Mike you download your friend all!! Tell me!'
And he started laughing till his ears turned red.

And Yana was stuck in the rain, and she'll text me saying 'Okay I take the bridge to RP.'
And I'm like 'Ya you take and come k! SEE YOU.'
HAHAHAH.
But she came alone, the bridge wasn't there.

I've got some exam this Sat! And then evening some event of my cousins.Its jam-packed for me.
But its a big event this Sat, cause its Big's event. Lol.

Wanna come not Sindhu? Play sparklers la....everyone will be there.
You know...everyoneeee...hahahaa.
Sindhu's been more than funny lately, and I seriously think its because she's trying to be like Gaga and I.
Kk relax!
But ya, you've been my laughing partner these days, its been damn fun.

And stop finding faults in smses, read the sms, despite the lil spelling mistakes can.

I love this picture of you! Lol. Your eyebrow is the sex la Sindhu! Haha.
Be glad I convinced you to thread! Lol.
So how now?
JS or D or...hahahaha.
thuthuthu 1000 times la.
But don't worry, if you really are on, beach outing as planned k? Lol.
S will plan.

I MISS MY SOULMATE TOO MUCH ALREADY.
I AM SO SAD, I HATE HER ATTACHMENTS, THOUGH BEING A NURSE MEANS ATTACHED TO A HOSPITAL FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE.
BUT NOT SEEING her MAKES ME SAD. :(
MISS YOU FRIEND. I can't see you this weekend too.

My loves down under had a wonderful halloween and along with Shaun who visited them!!
WAHH, I WISH I WAS THERE.

Sam was like a gypsy woman!Love the eyework.

My beautiful baby!

Shaun went as Adam Lambert?I think? Lol.

Aww...

I miss ya'll. Alot.

Amy and Sam! I miss ya'll alot. So don't forget me in your happening lives k!

And,I feel so distant from Tnesh now.
Not that he CARES. -.-
I miss you so much love. I really do.
And its been a while since I said this, but I love you.

Yours truly! :)

Bitchy much?Lol.
I'll never forget how Vik said, 'I swear this the most bitchiest face I've ever seen.'
But I like it la..

So lately, I've had someone to keep accompanied thru the nights, and he's annoying meeeeee cause, he sings, and like he knows I love people who can sing, but he won't sing?! LIKE OMG ANNOYINGGGG.
I always feel that those who can sing/dance or are musically inclined in some way are blessed. :)

And on a sidenote, Oswind is doing alright.
:)He will.

Godspeed and my love.

:(

2009-10-29T21:38:00.003+08:00

A BREATHER IS WHAT I NEED. I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE.

TOO MANY THOUGHTS ....TOO MANY EMOTIONS.

MANY MORE QUESTIONS.

The problem is not that I get myself too close/involved with my loved ones, but the fact that I am close and there's only so much I can do.

SO GOD, answer my questions.
What can I do?
What will happen now?
Is it the end or .....

There's only so much one can take.
So show me, show me that you know what you're doing.

FEELING DAMN DISTURBED I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE.
:(

RIP

2009-10-21T09:49:00.005+08:00

As much as we all hate the part, to part, we all go through it.
And sometimes its just too much it overwhelms you.
My bestfriend's dad passed away.
And sometimes, I wonder why do things like these happen to sucha nice guy?
He's an awesome person he is.
And the fact that dear mum of just passed on 2 years ago, it cuts like crazy to think how he's gona deal with life now.

With a younger sister barely 16 and an elder sis who's living/studying abroad the numerous thoughts that was passing through his mind since scares me.
But he smiles,jokes and even laughs and it calms me down, but I know that after the smile dies down the problem runs in.

Then is when I realise, his assets are his friends.
All his friends who are there for him, are there for him as much as his relatives or actually even more.
Like how everyone who has Sam is somehow gifted.
Cause regardless of where she is she'll help, she'll do however much she can.
And so, her mum who's a lawyer will be helping him with however ways she can.
And I feel so warm knowing there are real genuine nice people around.

My mum is more than willing to cook for Oswind,his sisters and his other relatives when he needs my mum to.
Even Vik's mum is doing that tonight.
I feel glad.
But I still have got this naggy feeling in me.
I really don't know how to put it down in words.
But the Uncle's face is still fresh in my head.
With his eyes open. :(
I just know I'll feel much better after Oswind settles all his current pressing issues.
But one by one boy, you'll do it. We are all here with you.

I've always wanted to know his sister, and its through this incident I'm getting to know the younger one.
And she's sucha nice girl I totally adore her.
And besides that, I realised how much Oswind friends are willing to do for him.
From Chandra !! To Mash!! To Ramp!
Awesome people, too awesome friends.

My eldest sis and I were discussing about how everything is being orchestrated for us by the one above, and at the same time, he should know there's so much he can test and take from one.
So show me will you?
That this boy and his sisters will have a bright ease life.

As I've mentioned before, Oswind's asset are his friends.
I really mean that.
And I realise how much some people will go through to be there for Oswind.
Like Sam who'll do all it takes even if she's in another country.
Like how Tnesh will do all he can to get a Gate pass to attend the Funeral.
Like how Viknesh will also do the same.
And these people are eventually the friends you need.
Cause some won't even try.

And I was this close to meeting the dad, because he wanted a friend of Oswind who knew how to blog. :(

I'm done.

Om Nama Shivaya.
Rest in peace Uncle.
Bless Oswind and his Sisters Shiva.
I know you will.

random wednesday evening

2009-10-14T21:04:00.008+08:00

Its been ages, and it will be ages till I blog again.
Lol, but Deepavali's coming and I'm not excited.
Or maybe I am just for Sunday.
Going out with the dance Lovies to Aichu's place for lunch and then the usual cousins gathering at Grandma's.

I think there's alot going on.
And I've so little to say already.
I'm embracing the moments as they come.
Cupids have been my happy pills outside school, while my FYP loves continue being my happy pills in school! :)

Pavitra's surprise was a small one, but I am glad she loves it.
We got her the best cake, meaning Coco Exotic from Four Leaves and an awesome pretty bag/clutch from Charles and Keith its awesome!

I was thinking about how I would be interested in a guy and what I really would expect from him.
And how amazing it would be if I can even find sucha person here.
Which means never?!
So here's my hopes atleast ; That he :

Has to be able to sing.
Has to be God Loving.
Is loving.
Is understanding.
Plays soccer!
Respectful.

Almost impossible to find laaa.
But then again thats why its always, 'Almost Perfect'.
So I'm gona remain a nun for the rest of my life. :P
Or maybe not.

And and and, on a random note, I think I'm blessed.
Or just lucky! :)
I get songs every night and they are not devotional ones la.

Today I had the best time with the last person thought. (KK DONT ANGRY!)
*Does no need hand gestures*
SINDHU MOLE.
Hahahah.
I just laughed too much, till I had chest pain, stitches and what not. Lol.
And RUBY RED'S THE IN THING, MANY THANKS TO YOU LOVE! -.- 1000 TIMES.
Sunday plan better go as planned? Or then again, if it doesnt, Plan B will always happen k?
Don't worry!

MY SOULMATE has been so busy la. But she'll claim otherwise in my tag-board for sure!
Haha. I think I'm so blessed with the best family, best sisters, brothers, bestfriends and ... everything else.
It has to be so. Lol.

I'm missing my bombie alot.
And Sammy Kutty.
I hope ya'll are good.
Loves.

Godspeed and my love.

Navarathiris season down! Next...

2009-09-30T10:00:00.004+08:00

Yay back with some proper updates.
Navarathiri's officially over ...and the past 10 days were great for me.
Fasting along with my lovies ...was nice.
And while they are done with their fast,mine's like going on till forever la.
Firewalking ceremony, and another fast afterwhich is why.

So yes, normally every year we dedicate the last day of 10 day to our Guru.
But since it fell on a Monday which was supposed to be 2 days ago, my teacher brought it in advanced and made it on the 8th day(Saturday!) and so we all went over at like 10 am with our usual fruit/flower platter and our jingles to receive blessing from our Guru.

The prayer only was going to begin at 1 ish, but we had performance the following day and so the hours before that we used for practise and of course cam-whoringgg! :)

:) All of them were so so pretty la, Sarves was astonishingly beautiful with her suit and her eye-work and she was so upset with us for not dressing up, but walau, we can't la, we had practise and grand suits don't help at all for Gaga and I.
Sindhu looked so pretty as well .

Gaga! :) In the middle. Hahaha.

That's Priya. =)

So like we had alot of flowers and we didnt offer all to my teacher I decided to have a rose on my ear, and though it was funny Gaga had it too, and so did Sindhu,Sarves and then basically the whold load of us! Damn cute la they!

I love them so much, they're my joy in class.

So pretttyyy!!

This like 1/3 the senior class, the others couldn't make it. BUT YES ! CHECK OUT THE ROSE!
So nice la. And thats obviously my Guru in green. :) The best choreographer I've came across.

I personally like this so much. And yes, my Guru's got a beautiful house uh.

It was really fun taking the 'perfect shot' , as my Guru wanted it pasted on the temples we were going perform end of this year. Which is the Murugan temple, the one we walk a few kilometers in Thaipusam.

United under the same passion.

I was thinking how the hell I became so short la...Then I realised Sarves and I were standing below the platform the other two were.

So yes, came Sunday, and I was like feeling scared la. Been a year since we performed.
And the thing to look forward to was Gaga,Sindhu,Sarves and I on the same stage after 10 years okayyyy.
So yes, Gaga's parents picked me up, while my parents and my lookalike sis made their way down to the Temple.
My other cousins couldnt come la sadly. :(
So yeh, South Bridge temple was FULL as always and we waited like 30 mins before our time began.And we were doing the opening dance dedicating to the Elephant God of course.

So yes! A few more photos!

:) I swear Sindhu's costume is such beauty la...I was loving it so much.

From left, Aichu,Shobi,Priya,Gaga,My teacher,Sindhu,Sarves and myself. :)

So Thrina came! I was glad to see her again. Like really glad. She's so suppportive I love her so much.

Missing you Thrina! :)

Thrina love. :)

Just before we began, and I swear even if the dance didnt tire me, the LIGHT, the OMG LIGHT, spotlight,shitlight was ON ME SO MUCH, THE HEAT PENETRATED all the way, it was a wonder my brains weren't roasted. Seriously, throughout the 12 mins of dance, the light wasn't helping me in anyways.

But the highlight of my teacher's dancers, were these 4 little girls who were amazingly cute and they received so much of applause from the crowd and you can imagine the wolf whistles from us.
THey were amazing!

Super cute la. Sindhu's cousin in yellow/navy blue combination.

:)

So yes! Performance went well! :)

On another note, school's starting and I'm dreading it la.
Only bright side is FYP but then it gets dark at times.
LOL.
Yana love,if you're reading this them please know that Mike's coming back on the 3rd only!
And like I can't meet on 4th and 5th due to the firewalking ceremony so call me soon k slut? Haha.

My holidays have been alright, meeting up with Gaga like almost everyday,and with Sindhu,Oswind as well as this annoying person but like yeh,it's been fun.

My dearest Tnesh has went back to camp after his long MC, and I've already missed him la.

Omg yesterday I was really really tired, so after I got home from meeting Gaga and Sindhu, I slept at like 8.30 pm la! Thinking I'd wake up at 11 atleast?But I ended up waking up at 2.30 am to realise I've got 8 new smses and 3 missed calls la!
Haha, sad part was I missed K7's call from JB la, he's apparently there for some school trip and so he claims!
Lol.
I like how he would call me and not call his sister(Gaga that is!Lol) ...hahaa. Adorable but a devil that lil one.

So my plans for this week!
Today : Meet up with Gaga laterrr.
Thursday : Not sure.
Friday : FYP meeting without Mike, as he's got his ass up at Indon now. Lol.
Sat : Supposedly do something we lovies need to do and in the evening temple to carry milkpot.
Sunday: Temple! To watch the Reanactment of the firewalking ceremony as well as to see the Bhajans, and Vinoth's like urging me to come and videooooo -.-, not that I mind la, but using his camera, then who's gona video for me?!

And like, to be really vague and out of subject... I really don't know where's this gona land in.
Sometimes I think being a social butterfly doesnt bring you good entirely!

Okay this is me!
I'm out.

I owe my AmyBombie a call, and so bro, hold up k?
I just get so busy with things I can't call la. SOON! I LOVE YOU! X

And to the cute Chindian girl Ashwini! Sunday, I'll see you k? Haha.
:) If its even possible to see you in the predictable crowd.

Godspeed and my Love.

catch upsss

2009-09-23T22:53:00.004+08:00

Alot's been going down.
I am like super annoyed with the lack of my own laptop.
It annoys me so much that I end up heading over to my room like so early la.
But good thing is I got a new line.
Number's changed ya'll! After 2 frigging years!
I needed the change desperately.

I am like having a writer's block now.
I can't think what to say.

But here's the good news, I am getting my LAPTOP back tomorrow!
I swear I miss it too much.
I'll take extra care my lovies, I wont stomp on my keyboard k?
Lol.
And and and, I am gona be relief teaching tomorrow so yeh...but only down side is its a Tamil class.
But I've had enough experience teaching TAMIL in ENGLISH.
So I am gona do just that.
Waliao so difficult for me to speak in Tamil in the professional way la.

That aside, Navarathiri's still going on, 5th today and I've been going temple almost everyday.
I only missed yesterdaay.
On Monday I went to temple with the crew and it was fun.
Best part was JHB(My all time fav bhajan group) were there to perform.
And Sindhu got to watch them live which she really been wanting to for a while.
And it was all good. Right? Hahah, from the Praying moment to seeing... tsk tsk. Lol.

Obviously the guys from the group knew Oswind,Viknesh and Thinesh and they were talking after their session and then we all headed home.
I still think I've never met a better vocalist than Samsu.
His voice is amazing la.
And the other guys are just as awesome as well.

Well I am done!

I need to get my laptop right away!

Sammy and Amy I'm finally gona email ya'll!
Hold up k? :)

Sunday we're having our performance at SouthBridge temple.
And I hope all goes well! :)

Godspeed and my Love.

all that ends well stays well?

2009-09-17T01:10:00.010+08:00

Slut Yana! I AM SO SORRY FOR NOT WISHING YOU ON TIME!
HAPPY HAPPY 19TH!
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! And I'll see you soon with your gift k? xx
You have no idea how much I miss you, Mike and Zirah.
I really miss our FYP days man.
I can't wait to see you all. :)

And then I was thinking the other day as to how I hate the Yishun area due to the 4567890123 Indians living there but ironically most of the guy friends I have come from there.
Tnesh balanced it up by living in Woodlands.

I was reading my archives in search of certain photos.
And I came across some interesting posts that made me laugh and made me frown.
Having a blog is good la!

See I was reading on how I was crazy in love with Yogi B and Natchatra.
And how I somehow got to contact Emcee Jesz and how I actually got to hang out with him a couple of times.
All these memories really gives me happiness.
Like yeh....I appreciate them all.

It started with an obsession in their music...

The first picture with Jesz. First perfect picture atleast.Lol.

I was still a good girl then, wearing pottu all. LoL.

This photo I likeee. :) He called me his biggest fan, or I think I made him to. LOL.

ANd now Jesz has his own album, own rocking videos... and though I don't mention him often, its nice to know that he'll always be nice enough to chat with me on FB. :)
So cheers to that. :)

THAT ASIDE...

Its irritating when you don't have your own laptop and you have to sit and wait around till your siblings decides to give his fingers/eyes a rest which RARELY happens by the way and then you lose all other interest to blog cause you don't know when your sibling would want to use his laptop again and so you have to rush through facebooking/msning and thats all the time you have.
I can go on!

But seriously!

MY LAPTOPS AT ACER BY THE BY. FOR 2 WEEKS NOW.
Cause I just decided to have it repaired!
Argh.

ANYWAYS!

First up!!
GOSSIP GIRL IS BACK!
And omg was it exhilarating or what!
I was initially so confused with B&C's relationship status.
Like how fun can it be to play the cheating Bass-tard and the scorn girlfriend!
But I guess anything goes with them.
They have so much of chemistry its just wow la!
Ya'll gotta watch it!!
Apart from B&C I like the new boy Scott!

Dramas aside, oh then again whats life without some right Gaga?
Hahaha.
I'm back at my primary school relief teaching.
And I had the best 2 days with the favourite class of mine.
They are P4s, and like quite a smart one too.
I've relief-ed them before and they are funny la.

So see there's this Malaysian Punjabi boy named Harjan.
And he carries a sling pouch along with his school bag,but he never puts down his sling bag, cause obviously his passport must be in right?
So after greeting them and exchanging some words on why their teacher isnt in school I begin lesson.
And this Harjan will start being so talkative with me and I happened to ask him, 'Are you carrying your bag because your passport is in?'
And that one will tell me, 'No, my grandmother's photo!' in his Punjabi accent and I couldnt help but laugh la!
So SARCASTIC LA!
So I said, 'Do you think your funny?' and he goes, 'No la cher(the short form of teacher) a bit..'
OMG LA.

And then there's this Chinese boy named Amos, super super adorable has this look of a future gamer.
So I asked him, 'Are you a gamer?' and his reply was astounding la!
"No I am an ADVENTURER!'' LO-effing-L LA!!!!
But he's my favourite student so much so he would rather pass PE and come with me to the staffroom la.
But of course I didnt allow that.
But seriously kids nowadays are brilliant.

I've got pictures of them,but since I am not having my laptop now, I can't transfer photos from my phone soon I will! :)
And then I return the next day back to their class and they were so happy, cause we love it when our teachers arent at class-duh.
But I made them do alot of work, and I actually had to go through with them answering all their questions which are at times RIDICULOUS.
Hahaha.

Oh and as you may have noticed.I've an added person under my links.
I actually have to revamp my blog layout, been so sick of it, as your people have noticed, my background's plain black now, with no more golden orbs. :(
Original user has that image removed from her photobucket.
SO YEH! :(
NO SAD SAD ah SINDHU! Lol.

But yes, see, remember how I mentioned that I had the chance to attend a house prayer and all?
It was my cousin's friend/ my RP junior, well he has a sibling.
A girl of course, she's by far the cutest most adorable Chindian I came across.
Something even Sindhu vouches for la!

But really, my brother and my cousins were commenting on how they've never seen a Chindian dress up so Indian and all which makes her even more adorable.
Cause she's really so cute in person/photo.
And she's nice as well. So love, you're one of kind that I have to share about that.
Its not always you come across nice Chindians, most of them are either oblivious to the fact they are still Indians or they are just too full of themselves.Like SOME people. Haha.

Oh and yes! I was amazed with myself today as to how spontaneous I was with constructing such inspiring phrases.
See I was talking to Tnesh about something and I said, 'I rather be disliked for my truth than to be liked for my fakeness.'
And member goes, 'Oh wow! I am astounded...bla bla', started with his dramatic expressions.
But I don't always get that from him, so it was a compliment all the same.
Hahaha.

And then Sindhu was reading through my archives and commented on how detailed I was then and now not anymore.
And I responded with this, "as we grown older we realise somethings are better savoured than shared."
Tsktsk, I ought to remember I was a bit good with words.
HAHA.
Well well, no use being good with words all when we can't get the things we want right love?
HAHA.
DVMDVMDVM.

See I was so bored in the staffroom during my free periods when I took out a paper and started jotting down my friends name.
Like everyone who has been in my mind that moment.
And then I think I wrote over 20 names.
And I divided it into 4 columns.
There was one which was Need and love alot, another was Need to continue being the way we are, Need to get closer and lastly was the bomb la, NEED TO EVEN KNOW!
HAHAHA. Gaga and Sindhu perfectly know who falls under the NEED TO EVEN KNOW!
Right guys? Lol.

But see, then I thought back on how many names I have under my first column.
And its alot, and I realised I really truly appreciate these friends of mine and even if I don't get to know the people I want to 'NEED TO EVEN KNOW' I will be alright.
Cause appreciating what we have is alot better than hoping for what we may not have.
Right? Lol.
But God forbid that happens. That 4 under the last catergory and we strike big! Lol.

Anyways, I am really excited, as there's this 'Salangai Oli' competition.
A classical dance competition for the first time in my history and so we were thinking if our Guru will allow our class people to take part.
And she did!
So yay for that, Sindhu's obviously representing the class, with Priya and Sarves I think they may just clinch the title!No they WILL be clinching it. :)
I am excited. All those who have graduated have to show their gots!

With Navarathiri(A 9 day special period dedicated to the Goddess) starting on the 19th, I will be temple-hopping alot just to see all the dances and bhajans even, that will be performed. Its the best time la.
I'm prolly gona be rotating among the north Temples.
So if ya'll are up join me!
You are joining me right Sindhu? Lol.

I need to watch UGLY TRUTH AND PHOBIA 2 NEXT WEEK!

Pavitra! You can just die, I am so so so tired of trying to meet you up for you
know what. :(

And and and Lalang I'll see you real soon at Avva's place. :)

Saw this one last week or so. He won't bother to contact me la! -.-

And he promised to take a day off from work and go along with us to where he works ; Night SAFARI! Yay! I've been wanting to go there la! Cause...LOL.

Nisha love!! Hang in there k. I hope to see you during our holy trips to temple once Navarathiri starts. :)

If there's something I learnt from Gaga is the fact that it doesnt matter what it takes to stand up for your bestfriend even if it means you're gona be disliked for it.
I know this is random friend,but I'll always look up to you.
Love you so much.

Random! I love it still!

:) Awesome moments.

And if I COULD honestly wish for something.
It would be the good old times I had with my dance mates.

Arrangetram of my mates was an eventful night. ANd I miss it all.

I know I am reminiscing alot but today's been a flashback day for me.

:) Helping her in the dressing room was all good experience for me.

This people I can't live my life without! :) Missing you awesome cousins!

And just so you two know, I miss you all so much.
:) I really do.
Sometimes, all I do is sit down and think about our lovely moments together knowing it will take some time before we can have it again.
I'm always missing ya'll, so have all the fun in Perth you two. Love you two alot!
I'm gona do all it takes to come down next year. House me k one of ya'll! xx :)

I miss my Ms.Lovey ~~

Elan is back!
From Hotel California as so he claims.
Haha.
He's an ass.
I missed him !

Killabeez la! Sing your anthem with me Tnesh,'369...the goose drank wine..'
He is recovering and I am glad, cause I'm dragging him to watch Phobia with me. :)

Godspeed and my love!

Happy birthday Childhood friend! :)

2009-09-15T00:04:00.003+08:00

Dear Thadj

Its been forever that I've known you.
From the age of 4, my my, its been 16 years uh.
And the fact that we still actually keep in touch, though not much, is something I truly appreciate.

I've seen you through your happy/sad(actually they were more bad than sad cause you arent exactly a remorseful person. :p)
moments and each time I knew that despite all the shit you went through there's this person who would want to succeed in life?

My secondary school days, specifically, my lower sec days were dramatic with you around.Nevertheless, I appreciate you truly for your lame and almost funny aura you always carried with you.

You were an ass to most but not me! So yay for that! It was nice getting that special treatment from you, though I was so sure it was because you knew I'd prolly tell your mum and you'd die! Lol.

But seriously, as you turn 20 today, I genuinely wish you all the best for the next phase of your life which deserves to be the best.I know you will step it up and waste no more time for all that you've went through.

The past years we've been far from each other literally and not so literally but I know that the past years you've always been lingering somewhere in my thoughts and I hope you would know that regardless the distance whatsoever, you always meant alot to me and still do.

Its like how someone affects you so much in one phase of life and that mark never leaves or fades? You mark will stay.

I'll always be there for you. I will. And I think you know that too.

So have a freaking 20th!!
I wish to see you soon, along with my Elan-dearest! Haha.

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY IDIOT!

Much loves and misses,your secondary school savior(I was the best friend you could ever have k!Always getting you out of trouble)! Hahahaha.

Sunday Mass Bhajans were rocking!

2009-09-08T00:13:00.010+08:00

I appreciate my cousins, specifically my Seanpaul cousin for everything he's done.
Like through him I get to see things and engage myself with things I really love?

So I got invited through him to this house prayers and that was simply because he knew the group that were gona be singing the devotional songs was the group I really like cause they're awesome!

And the prayers was simply so so so beautiful la.
I got to see alot of things but didnt get to see one thing. Lol.

Okay so yes, I went to this guy's house. He's a friend of my cousin, and he's a junior at RP too.
And seriously,it was sucha grand one la.
Really really felt the vibes after some time.
The bhajan guys were awesome as usual, but Vinod wasnt there and he was missed la.
His voice is really good.

So yeh afterwhich cousins,my brother and I headed home for a late dinner and 2 of my cousins stayed over as we had a Mass Bhajan to attend the next day which I never heard of before and was looking forward cause the same guys who sang in the prayers were one of the groups who were gona be singing.
Oh yeh they're named Jai Harithras Bhajan.

And the mass bhajan started at 9 in the morning and we were there to show support to JH Bhajans.
And like 10 groups were involved? And so... like everytime a group sings a song their turns end.
And a song lasts for like 10 mins, and then the next group sings.
So since JH Bhajan group was the last in queue I had to wait like 90 mins before seeing them in action.
It was a painstaking wait k!
8/10 groups were really making noise...like omg noise...forgetting that a mike amplifies their voice they scream into the mike and it was ohsopainful to my ears.
And I wanted to video the guys I came for and so I did.

I swear the first song was AWESOMELY beautiful, like all the other groups were really taken aback. That I gauged by their claps at the end of it. Cause these guys were the youngest but they really sang as if they've been singing for a long time.
And the first song was a dedication to Lord Shiva, and so dear old brother of mine was obviously loving it and so was I.
The vocalist who's nick named as Paruthi was so so talented la, he actually penned down the song himself?

And Vinod played the tavil(One of the Indian drums) and the remaining guys played the other instruments/clapped/sing along.
And it was mind blowing honestly.
And one more thing I really liked was their uniform? Like most groups wore same colour or same tailored suits but these boys were a variety of similar tops, and these tops had like the 'OM' prints on them.

And then the cycle repeats, one song per group and I waited for another hour for the second song okay! And it wasnt as if all the songs sang by the different groups were really pleasant.
I thought that since JH Bhajans were the last, I shall take it as the best for the last, so waiting shouldnt be an issue.

Second song was alright ...but the the beautiful part of that was Paruthi the vocalist, went one step higher and played a mouth-keyboard/organ.
Like he would blow into the keyboard and play the notes. Cause he wanted to play the snake tune which is not possible unless you have the original instrument meant for it?
But these guys are simply blessed la. They are so talented and I respect them so much.
Check it out! (Last 1.45 mins)

And 2 more songs before the mass bhajan came to an end, so like I was there from 9 to like 2 and only heard 4 songs being sung by JH Bhajans lor.
So I was looking forward to the 3rd and 4th song as Vinod was the vocalist and I think he's an open-throat singer so singing into the mike wasn't entirely working out for him but still his voice is nice.
And so this was their third song, the same song he sang in my house prayer.

And lastly!

The first 30 seconds I love cause it involved mainly the drums and they played it so nicely.I love the beats from the smaller one which Vinod plays.

Yep, so thats how my Sunday morning-noon went. And afterwhich they had a mass Urumi(Another famous Indian drum) session. And that was 80% more on the drum playing than singing.
And I am not exactly a fan of that. So yeah, all the guys who came to support JHB were talking and I was waiting for them to be done and finally off home!

And I went over to Gaga's place cause her mum threw a feast for Viknesh who was going of to camp soon which was yesterday. And afterwhich I came back home and did up all the videos and uploaded them! Efficient or what.

But what I didn't expect at all was the call made for me by Vinod the following day(Monday).
He called my brother to ask if he could have my number. Somehow he saw the videos I uploaded.
But since my line's down -.- -.- -.- , my bro passed his phone to me and Vinod was really nice to thank me for the videos la.
But I honestly didn't do it for them or anything of that sort,only cause they're worth being recorded to be watched again. And my brother went all the way to even connect his camera to my tv so we can watch it in a clearer definition. Hahaha. But yes, I think these guys are awesome.

And so 4 Oct, a day before firewalking ceremony, they'll be performing along with the group that came to my house prayers ? I don't know whats their group name, but these 2 groups, probably the best two I've heard are performing at 2 pm at South Bridge temple. So Yay for me! :)

I hate the fact that I don't have a phone la, I didnt really mind till earlier.
My bestfriend's in hospital to have his appendix removed, and he was admitted yesterday and I only knew today and like his sis had to leave me an offline message in MSN.Thank God she thought of that.

I am off now!

Seconday school catch ups

2009-09-06T21:46:00.000+08:00

I know its been damn long but seriously my past 1 week has been honestly heartwarming.
It started on 31st August when I decided to head down to my Secondary school to meet up my fellow teachers and what pleasant surprise it was to see Jeronme,Joel and Justin.
Haha.

And it was a good thing for me. I had fun.
I really had fun spending time with Juen and the rest.
Daniel who was supposed to join us didnt cause he overslept and so we ended up meeting for lunch and then proceeded to Iluma to see 2 other friends from my Secondary school.

See, I ended up doing something I would never thought I would la.
Jeronme and Daniel will just assume I am gona go with the flow and so through Angela who was working at this super posh Lan Shop we settled for L4D.
And I really didnt mind much as I've heard about how L4D is and we had discount and so it was so cheap for 2 hours.
I gamed la. OMG ARE YOU KIDDING? I knoww I gamed!!
Hahaha, so Jeronme,Daniel and Juen thought they were damn funny to keep me locking me out of this emergency door cause I obviously don't know 'E' was to open/close the damned door? And they will create a tank and and that asshole of a zombie will start attacking me!
OMG! I played as the Human la.
And walau, the fun thing was we all had like headphone/speaker so we could talk and didnt have to literally face each other and yell cause when I needed help I just need to yell but no they intentionally scared me by disallowing me to enter the room and purposely creating a tank!
THANKS DANIEL!!
Damn it.
Hahaha.

But it was a good day with the best classmates I can ever ask for.We had a good time speaking about our Sec 4 days and I thoroughly enjoyed myself. We made plans to meet up soon and its just beautiful isnt it?
We graduated in 2005 and its 2009 and we still have shitloads to speak about laugh about.

So yes, seeing as it was time for me to walk down memory lane, I made plans and finally made it happen to meet up with Tia.
Haha, we were rather ambitious to head down to Causeway though we lived like 5 mins from each other and since it rained that day we just settled for the Macdonalds at Admiralty.
Seeing her immediately brought me back memories right from the time we started talking.
She has become alot more prettier than I remember.

I just felt so comfortable sharing all that has been going down for me and I was really happy she shared her stuffs too. Like its a bond which doesnt need to be strengthened by meeting/talking but the mutual understanding trust and love we'll always have for each other.
I will still always remember you for the way you stood up for me love! No one did that for me then, but only you.
And yes, after reading your blog, I realised! OMG YOU REMEMBER THAT NIGHT?
That night we skipped night class. You still remember why? Cause you used your TUITION money to buy earrings(AN ITEM WHICH YOU WERE OBSESSIVELY MAD ABOUT SINCE THE AGE OF 13)and you were so screwed weren't you? Cause your mum found out you havent paid you tutor and she wanted it back and you cried over it la! Lol. Damn funny, but it didnt stop there, that was right,we started talking about life and how irresponsible we've both become though O levels wasn't that far away.

But the classic moment was when this love of mine paid for her food at Macs and dropped her wallet back into her bag and then after a few mins she goes, 'OMG! WHERE'S MY WALLET!', I swear it was so effing funny because she never changed since the age of 16 la!!! Thats how she was then, and it was always the WALLET like how it was the ezlink for me then and handphone now. (Shut up cupid)
But yes, I was laughing and I told her, 'Things really hasnt changed much Tia, you certainly haven.'
And we laughed nonstop and started on how Bambam would scold her till she cried, for always losing her wallet.
There was a time we wanted to teach a lesson, we ended up teaching a few but to no improvement.
She would simply cry when her wallet went 'missing', when we intentionally took it and pretended.
And when the tears went above quota we would just place it back and she'll think nothing happened and start being careless again. Hahaha. Day in day out!

But I think you were right about how it felt like to be opening up a diary and going through page and speaking about each and every memory.

'Northland Guys' as so they were titled and still are, was also one of our topics and it was really so funny talking about it. And just so ya'll know those guys are the currents guys I usually talk about . Tnesh,Pravin,Oswind,Viknesh etc.
So yes!

See the reason why I can never forget Tia is because she has simply shared so many things with me regarding life. Among all of us, we both went through the same uptight controlled lifestyle.
Like how we all had curfews, Tia's and mine was almost similar.
But member even better, 16 birthday had boys even. I was 4 years behind her man. Hahaha. ONLY during my 20th I could have them over, and that was also a surprise.
But yeh, she always said, 'What they don't know won't hurt them.So I think its all about knowing what to tell to our parents.'

Which was true cause eventually even if we have to literally be 2 persons we dealt with it fine.
Like how TEKONG, not the real tekong where guys go for NS, but its this park near our secondary school was our birthday area.
Everyone's birthday was celebrated there, or most I should say. Like we even threw Pravin a party there la! Like Christ Church and Northland coincides in dear old Tekong park.
LOL. But really cause we obviously had to LIE to our parents that Speech day comes with a complimentary dinner just so we can return home later we obviously had to bring extra clothes to change into?And the moment we leave Tekong part somehow or rather we'll get changed and poof we're all clad in white&green(uniform duh) and back home that once it even surprised the 'Northland guys' when they saw us at Woodlands Int wearing that.

So then comes some emotional talks about our schoolmates/friends passing on and it impacted us cause we were a group no matter the ups and downs we all faced. And then came the part that Tia herself didnt know how it affected me?
She remembered the way I was after my grandma's passing on. She remembered how I pointed exactly where my grandma lost her life in my house and she remembered how I loved her.
And I was taken aback. I was so shocked I swear. And she didnt just say it but she said it from her point of view, like she went, 'Yeah and you can look at the place your grandma left cause you love her...and you can walk across her room knowing she might be there and not get scared cause there's love.'

Thank you Tia for all that. I genuinely appreciate you from the bottom of my heart. Yep, so that catch up session with her went really well and fun I think more of these now and then would be heartwarming. :)
This time with the rest of them yes?

So yeh, come Thursday, I met up with Daniel and Juen after I got done with relief teaching at dear old Fuchun. And we were off for a dinner treat from Daniel and he's going to camp soon we made him treat us. Lol. And we got a share of punishment for that la!!
My laptop spoilt afterwhich and Juen got summoned.
Damned!

But nice thing was the chilling at this Thai restaurant where we met Andrew a while and we off home. I think thats about all till my next post. I am certainly glad I am getting back in touch with my secondary school mates, sometimes the joy and laughs they provide me with no one else. :) I am happy that though they were only in my life for one period of time that phase was beautiful and I would give anything I can to get it all back.

Till the next time.

NO laptop NO hp.
-.-

Godspeed and my love.

i love you amy :)

2009-09-05T17:35:00.003+08:00

My love.
My bff.
You be alright k?

As I've said before, you're strong, strong but not as strong as me la. Haha.
But seriously, no matter what you know you'll always ALWAYS have me to talk to to depend on.

Cause eff the distance, you're closest to my heart despite it all.

I love your crazy self better, so yes, if goss gets you to be that, I'll always have that for you!
Like how I just shared something. But yes, you'll be fine.

You be happy soon bitchface!!
To cheer you up, with our fav duo. CHUCK AND BLAIR. ;) Remember ?Haha.

I LOVE YOU AMELIA!

Chuck-Bass can't be gay

2009-08-27T19:49:00.002+08:00

So pretty!

I find this picture rather interestingly cool la!

Holidays are here, and I THOUGHT I would be savoring it much but I am not la.
I rather have FYP days or school days.
LOL.
OMG I can't believe I just said that.
But yeh, if I am gona remain bored this way , I want school to come quick.

I can't even meet up with Soulmate thanks to her damned attachment which lasts for 3 weeks and so we have 2 weeks of holidays.
And due to that the rest of us dance lovies can't go out unless its after dance.

And Tia, call me up soon aiite? Maybe next week or so? Or the following wouldnt be a problem. :)

I had a heart attack la night, I felt as if the whole world came tumbling down on me. No you wouldnt guess la!
Like I really felt so affected.
And with no one to share it with, I had to dive myself further into that sorrow.
Damn.
See I am an ardent/fanatic fan of Gossip Girl and so I get the latest lowdown from one of the insiders web and I see all latest filming they are doing for the future season 3.

So I WAS reading happily to find more pictures and then I got a bit excited and typed 'Ed westwick' in google engine.
And that was the reason for my sadness.

"Spotted: Chuck Bass kissing someone other than Blair Waldorf ...

... and it's a guy.

Multiple Gossip Girl insiders tell EW that the show is currently filming an episode for Season Three in which Ed Westwick’s character kisses another man."

If you guys wanna know more than go on to www.gossipgirlinsider.com but seriously.
I only calmed myself down knowing that its one of Blair's scheme against someone bla bla bla.

But then again all these are just speculations. I am ready for the new season either ways.

Blair and Chuck better remain together!!

More released of their latest shoot :

I like this one best!

This is of season 3 episode 1 image :

Can't wait can't wait!

That aside, the 2 past days have been going by with me watching videos after videos.
And then comes my classical side yes.

I was really into finding out more about this genre we are currently learning : 'Kavadi Chindu', and my my I got everything I wanted to know about.

Sindhu and Gaga ya'll have to watch this video.
To be specific, watch it from : 1.02 - 1.19 &&&& 1.55 - 2.21

And another must watch :

I love her expressions.

This is their rendition, though I prefer ours! :)

Thats about all!!
I am off to watch tv and TOMORROW I'LL BE GOING BACK TO MY PRI SCHOOL TO RELIEF!
YAY.

P/s : Thini got an early book out and that means meeting him up tomorrow yay!!

P/p/s : Missing my cousins too much, Sat come quick!!!

P/p/s : AMY'S COMING BACK IN NOV YO!!! ITS GONA BE FUN JUST THE TWO OF US.
Get ready for you know what Amy!!Lol.

Godspeed and my love.